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Stop Whining. Please.

2012-02-10T10:32:00.000+08:00

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Biasalah manusia, bila busy, mengeluh memanjang. Bila free, tak gunakan masa sebaiknya. In the end, semua benda buat last minute jugak.

Ya Allah. Kenapa SA tak pernah belajar daripada kesilapan yang satu ni?

Everytime something new is about to begin, I'll always determine to not doing things last minute, to be more diligent, to study more, to this to that. But then, haih.

I'm more disappointed in myself. Siti Amirah, sila belajar dari kesilapan awak yang satu ni.

Sila. Please?

Finish up the notes first, only then can you finish up watching the movies or go online or something. Put your stuff in other people's lockers so that when they lock it and go out, you won't be having the urge to do unnecessary things. But that sounded desperate. But I did that, once, yesterday. This weekend, I shall finish up Basic Research and Method Writing (BMW) and a few notes, I hope. Blerghhh. What's the point of not going home if you can't achieve this?

Okay bye. I need to soothe myself. Keropoook!

Regards,

Amzyami.

New Semester. New Journey.

2012-01-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

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A fortnight ago, I registered for the new semester, in the new campus. It was quite hard to get used to the new place, especially the room itself. We used to have 17 pax but now we have only 6 - so the noise is beyond comparison lah kan. We used to have an attached bathroom but now we have to actually go out and we're treated with this whole first-come-first-serve thing. We used to go out 5 mins before class begins but now since the distance is quite far away we need to get our earlier - and of course, since I still get lost now and then.

But beneath it all, I'm still grateful. There's nothing wrong with this campus. It is enough for me. For those who complaints, remember when you first arrived in Nilai? You didn't like the campus (if I can call it that way) too, did you? It was too... not campus-y. But in the end, you get used to it. It's only a matter of time. You'll soon like this new campus I can assure you :)

However. Allah will always test His servants kan? This semester, which insyaAllah will be my final one in CFS, has the hardest subjects of all. Even though I had 7 subjects last semester and only 6 this semester, tapi subjects dia semua beraaaaaat belaka. And the schedule is quite packed as well. Because we have the double periods in one day, and single periods in another. In short, the schedule isn't balanced. So everyday from 0900 - 1600, it is quite a challenge for me to go back home. Kelas satu jam, rehat satu jam, kelas satu jam, rehat dua jam, kelas lagi satu jam. Walaupun bilik is on the first floor, but still. It's not worth it :/

Societies' cases pula. Rafest is very near kan, and I have two societies to be committed with. Last week, I spent every night with liqa' and meetings about our events. Hiyaaaaak, you can do it SA! Soon after RaFest ends, we will have SMAC pula. Then we'll have our finals in May. But in between these two major events, mesti ada buat minor events such as MGeo, NDay, etc. Usrah pun sama, DF, the challenge to stay consistent in performing the mutabaah and many sorts of other things. But it's okay, insyaAllah He will bless these things and put an ease to my studies. In tansurullaha yansurukum, kan?

But anyways, let us all survive through this semester together alright! InsyaAllah everything will go with ease, if only we try hard enough :)

Wallahua'lam.

Regards,

Amzyami.

Focus.

2012-01-05T01:53:00.001+08:00

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Because when you do so, every other little things will appear very simple and you can handle them with ease.

I remember this task that was given to us during Rehlah FRC. We were told to differentiate every single little seeds that were given to us. My team separated the biggest ones first, because it was the easiest. Then we took out the second biggest and it goes on.

It is always going to be better for you to solve the hardest part first, in which you have to put your total focus on it. Then only, focus on the little problems.

Hm, wonder why I'm talking about this. My fingers randomly pick the letters and it turns out to be this entry. Must have something to do with what I encountered today, but I didn't really pay attention to it. *Thinks hard* *Intrapersonal communicating*

Regards,

Amzyami.

2012?

2012-01-03T00:52:00.000+08:00

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First and foremost, happy 2012 :)

How was your New Year's Eve? Ehm, I'd like to share my experience :) My very first one.

Ohkayyy, verily, I went to 1000 Jiwa 1 Hati. I missed last year's, because I got back from a vacation a day before and had to pack for the upcoming camp. So I didn't really feel what my other friends have felt during the New Year's Eve.

(Entri mungkin adalah tersangat boring sebab takkan ada gambar, harap maklum.)

Highlight of the event was, during the night. Really.

Ibu Aishah, Ustzh Firuz were there, and Fedtri Yahya conducted the forum. It was merely more about dakwah. And to hear Ustzh Firuz's American accent, was something. Hahar. Ust Zahazan was also there, delivered ample of stories, in which I didn't have enough time to write them down so I recorded his session instead.

The best part, (The highlighted and bolded part :P) was Shoutul Harakah's performance! Seriously, music plays a huge effect in rising people's enthusiasm. During their performance, the music was SO loud! Everyone got the jihad spirit. But unfortunately, ShouHar themselves were more enthusiastic rather than the participants. A bit embarrassed there. However there were this group of people who were SO semangat they ended up singing with them on the stage.

A minute before the clock hit 0000 hours, ShouHar paused their performance. Brother AO gathered every facilitators and, when it reached 20 seconds to go, everyone counted down. Soon as the countdown stopped, everyone shouted the takbir and everyone vowed. The vow was somehow quite a burden, but I've vowed so I have to do it. Or else. Kata tak nak rugi, kan SA kan? That, was something. The feeling was there. Truly it was. Then we went back to the mosque and slept :P

When we were up to perform qiamullail, the road was still jammed, full of cars. Ya Allah, I was, and still am, thankful towards You that I don't belong in those kind of people. I was, and still am, that these 1300 total participants of 1000 Jiwa 1 Hati were selected to be there. And I hope, that most of those-who-spent-NYE-in-Dataran-Merdeka will join us again next year.

Hopefully there will be a next year. A better celebration insyaAllah.

Anyways, how was your NYE? :)

Regards,

Amzyami.

Goodbye, we shall never meet again.

2011-12-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

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Pejam celik, pejam celik, lip lap lip lap, tinggal lagi satu mukasurat je untuk chapter tahun ni. Nak isikan dengan apa lagi satu mukasurat tu?

Oh btw I know I can't tell the year to actually be nice to me,

because I have to actually earn it for it to be nice.

So please, set your feet on the firm ground :)

So now, I'll summarize what I've done throughout this year ;

January.

Went to the most awesome camp ever, Madrasatul Hayah-ikram, and met tonnes of new friends from different backgrounds. This has been posted before. MH-i had also reunite some of my primary school friends, dapat lah jumpa balik Syifa', Shafiah, Tasneem, Juju, etcetc. Even though some of our friends spent their first month of oh-so-long holidays with jobs in which they gained money, we gained educations :) Ilmu baru, dan ilmu lama yang diingatkan semula. We met a few famous and very inspirational individuals. We are still, and forever will be (insyaAllah) friends.

February.

Finally started my driving class. Phewww. After it had gotten delayed for a few months (kerana MH-i sendiri) finally I could start driving with Kak Kalsum, who was a very strict yet kind teacher. February was also when the first series of Latihan Kader Du'at (LKD) jiil 2 began. Time tu memang rasa sangat down to earth, sebab semua ikhwah akhawat yang hadir semuanya hebat belaka, masyaAllah. Also, the first series of daurah with the alumni, with the beloved batchmates :)

March.

Had to went through a few busy moments in which had to organize an event while attending LKD. But alhamdulillah, with the help of Allah, both programmes went smoothly :) The event was pelancaran IKRAMTeens Ampang Jaya. Shafiah, Tasneem, Ummu Habibah & I were guided by makcik-makcik Ampang Jaya yang cool dan sporting dan friendly!

April.

Was wasted at home. *Istighfar. But I did went to LKD and another daurah batch :)

May.

Reunited with MH-i friends, through ERAT. And also met some new friends. Unfortunately was the final series of LKD and also daurah batch :( Got our UPU result andddd, registered at the campus on the 29th.

June.

Began my first month as a mahasiswi. It was hard and tough. Especially with the APT, EPT and TEnT results that I got, the competition got higher. But alhamdulillah, with the supports of my fella dormmates yang cool sangat and I'm very grateful to Allah for giving me a chance to meet them :)

July & August.

HAD MY VERY FIRST RAMADHAN AWAY FROM MY FAMILY :( Yolah budak tak pernah duduk asrama kan. But everything has to have a first step. That was my first and last Ramadhan in CFS. InsyaAllah will be having the upcoming Ramadhan in Gombak :) Ya Allah sukanya boleh tarawih situ :') And also during July we had our midterm assessments. Yeay ._. Waktu ni juga, I had this very hectic week. HSSS Training and also Islamic Festival punya schedule ada clash. Spent few times with both, both went superbbb <3 Ni sangat sayang semua committee HS Student Society and FRC ni! XD

September.

Had my birthday, haha okay. Because we just came back from our Raya break and midterm assessments' results were given out, September is usually known as the month that is filled with assignments, presentations and also meetings and events. Phew -,-' But hey, when there's a will, there will definitely be a way. Final began, at the few last days of September.

Intansurullaha yansurukum, remember? :')

October.

Finished the final paper Basic Communication on the 3rd, waited for a day, then went straight to FRC punya rehlah. This one we gabung la Nilai and PJ. We are going to be merged next semester so.. Anyways. After the rehlah, spent only a couple of days at home theeeen, went to Terengganu with 'Atiqah Zaini and slept at Kak Comm's house! Had fun though, really.

November.

I did think of attending a sewing class or something, but I had to wait for Umi to finish her final presentation in UIA (Umi sambung study situ, btw and now dia tengah tunggu graduation! Whee) but the presentation was to be postponed lama sangat so every other classes pun kena lah postpone :p

December.

Went to various kinds of programmes. Learnt a lot, really. Accompanied Kak Asma' to visit this year's MH-i pula. It was very nostalgic. Had the ability to meet Pak Osman back again after nearly a year. Felt the excitement back again whenever I see pakcik aiskrim lalu situ. AJK Kebajikan. Hm. Anyways. It was hard to grow up eventually.

***

In simple words, 2011 was definitely not wasted. Alhamdulillah. Everything was worth it, even every single mistakes that I made. Because then, I wouldn't learn, would I?

So nowww, I need to prepare and pack up for tomorrow's Himpunan 1000 Jiwa 1 Hati :) InsyaAllah will not waste another year. 19 is too valuable. The final year of having 'teen' to be said in your age :/

Selamat Tahun Baru everyone. May next year be better than this year. Tak nak tergolong dalam golongan yang rugi kan?

Azam sem baru : Dapatkan 4 rata. Boleh tak SA? Tolonglah kata boleh. Please -,-'

Azam tahun baru : Too personal lah nak share dekat sini ye dak -,-'

Owaitt.

Regards,

Amzyami.

100th.

2011-12-19T12:50:00.000+08:00

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Bila rindu, gambar-gambar kalian yang ana tengok.

Bila rindu, majalah sekolah yang dibelek.

Bila rindu, nombor-nombor kalian yang ana call.

Haih, rindunya.

By the way, Syukran Syi dengan Tipah sebab buat gambar ni! Walaupun minggu ni korang exam tapi tangan tetap gatal nak edit-edit segala. Ana tersangatlah teruja sengih sorang-sorang setiap kali baca nama semua orang dekat gambar (hahaha).

Bersama keranaNYA, Selamanya insyaAllah.

Regards,

Amzyami.

99 - Dear You

2011-12-13T23:51:00.001+08:00

Dear You,

You know how much I wish I could turn back time, and fix anything that came between us that eventually made us who we are today. I'm barely sure whether you still read my blog or not, but we used to have blog fights, remember? :P

I hope, that you will give me another chance. I may not be able to go back to the past and change today, but I can start today and change tomorrow.

"Friendship that ends, has never ever begun in the first place" remember this quote? I hold onto it. Now, and hopefully forever.

I was browsing through a web and I found this, and your name came across me out of the blue. I just knew something has to be done.

Regards,

Me.

98 - One Step.

2011-12-06T13:33:00.000+08:00

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Have you ever felt pain? The pain that hurts SO much that you decide to ignore it.

No matter how you try to ignore the pain, no matter how hard you try to find distractions to make you forget the pain - ecstasy, weed and all those sorts of stuff - bear in mind that, once the effect is over,

you'll set your foot on the ground. Onto reality. And?

The pain returns.

That's why you shouldn't have ignored it in the first place. Endure it instead.

Regards,

Amzyami.

97 - I'm Thankful :)

2011-11-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

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Yesterday my sisters and I went to Big Apple. So I told the guy who was at the counter.

"Er, nak yang 6 pieces?"

He smiled. I was like, just take the box already! But then he pinched the girl next to him, mumbling things with hand movements. She looked at me, she smiled.

"Kak, saya nak yang 6 pieces, kak."

She remained smiling. She then pinched another guy next to him (not the one before this). Then he asked,

"Awak nak berapa?"

"6 pieces."

He then showed a sign language, "SIX" to the guy. Then I realized.

He was deaf. He smiled sheepishly, embarrassed maybe. But I was the one who should be embarrassed. I should have known when he was communicating with the girl. I should have realized that he didn't say a single thing. I should have been more observant.

Ya Allah, how naive can I be. As if I have insulted him - that's how I felt. But then, I realized, he, who couldn't hear anything, wouldn't have the opportunity to hear these chatters, footsteps, machines, everything that others could hear. And I bet, if he could listen, he would actually listen to these noises, he wouldn't just hear them.

While us, who are provided perfectly with all five senses, have we ever be thankful towards Him? Have we been using every senses to do good deeds? Heuheu, come to think of it, tak juga. I've lied, I've done so many sinful things. Haih.

My journey, is still ongoing.

96 - Judgmental.

2011-11-05T13:46:00.000+08:00

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Sometimes, those voices prevent us from changing for a betterment.

Sometimes, those voices make us feel more self-conscious.

Sometimes, those voices cause other voices to arouse.

Sometimes, those voices allow mental illness.

And also, the impurity of the heart.

Sometimes, we just have to ignore.

Ignorance is bliss, remember?

Let our dark history be gone.

Take it as a lesson, sure. Try not to do the same mistake again.

But just don't judge other people.

Let's say, a person wants to be a better person.

Then you start telling others about his past.

And then he refuses to change. He gets too embarrassed.

What have you done there, dear mate?

Yes you may be perfect.

BUT,

Are you perfect in the eyes of Allah?

Regards,

Amzyami

95 - Charged :)

2011-10-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

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Recently, I was added to a group. I was one of them, still am, in fact. But I was far behind. While I was in Nilai, I focused more on FRC and HSSS, but I forgot about the jama'ah.

I read their posts about difficulties on doing da'wah, with different characteristics of mad'u and the obstacles they faced. Then I wondered,

what have I contributed?

Haih. So my jiran sejati and myself went to school. We met our beloved Cikgu Raihan. I recharged myself, and I could also see how far my jiran sejati has gone, too. But thanks to the consultation, I'm much better now. As long as the determination is there.

New year, new campus, new environment. 2012.

Pray for me, to stay consistent.

Pray for me, to not forget the reason why I was created by Allah.

***

And, congratulations to CFS students who did very very well on their exams, and got amazing results. I'm so proud of the Topi Sengets && 809 The Nilainees as well :)

Regards,

Amzyami.

94 - .

2011-10-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

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Kadang-kadang, bila kita duduk sebumbung, serumah, sebilik even, masing-masing ego.

Bila duduk jauh, baru tembok-tembok tu pecah.
Baru value semua tu. Baru appreciate. Baru regret.

Tapi,
Bila duduk sebumbung balik, it is as if nothing happened.
And the ego reappeared.

93 - Say It. It?

2011-10-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

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Let's say, you've been craving to collect CSI:NY DVDs, and you want to buy them by using your very own money. Then you tell your dream to your parents.

Dearest parents (Macam ayat yang saya suka guna bila nak text both Ummi & Abah -,-'),

I have this addiction towards CSI:NY and one day, I'll buy the whole series!

The next day, you get one episode. Your parents give it to you. You must be very extremely happy, kan? But then, as days go on, you get an episode each day, the value must have been less, must it not? Plus, the feeling of satisfaction won't be the same as when you actually work hard to own the series.

Same goes to your daily quotation.

Recently I realized that people easily say Sayang, Dear and other mushy stuff like that to their friends. I only wonder one thing, do they really mean it? Or, is it just another fad that will be over one day? At first, you must be very valued when your friends call you Sayang. Then, as they call you Sayang everytime, even when you piss them off, the actual meaning of Sayang must be differ. Sarcastically.

***

The other thing I realized is, sharing is another fad. And some people, just tend to press like without reading them first. I mean, where's the appreciation towards what your friend has shared? READ it, only then can you like it. And, when you share things that other people write, have you ever felt how awesome it would be if someone else spread what YOU have written? I know I do. So, start writing something from your own that is actually beneficial to other people. Only then will you realize how much things you've shared previously have helped you.

Because sometimes, when I post long entry to some particular groups, the Like notifications come seconds after I posted it. Do you read that fast? No, you don't.

But anyway, this is from my point of view, not to be pointed towards other individuals :)

Regards,

Amzyami

92 - Cuti-cuti dulu :)

2011-10-18T18:19:00.001+08:00

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So few months back, the whole dorm planned for a dorm-vacation. You see, we may not be in the same dorm again next year. So, this could be some sort of a farewell party and might as well strengthen our ukhuwah. In the end, out of 17 people in the dorm, only three went. I was very disappointed to be frank, but hey, we can only plan. Allah yang tentukan eventually.

Our destination was..

TERENGGANU!

Thank You encik Z (hikhik) for giving me a ride from LRT to the bus station. It was quite embarrassing, for a person yang konon-konon nak jadi adventurous to end up like that :/ But I appreciate that, truly. Thanks also to the one and only AZ, for uploading the photos :) Saya nak upload tapi misplaced memory card lepastu malas nak cari :P

BILLIONS of thanks to KC and the whole family. AZ & I personally would like to apologize if we didn't eat everything that you guys have served us. Hihi. Thanks for the food, accommodation, food, bathroom, food, food and food :) I gained two kilos oredi :/

It was fun.

Our nights were filled with Saidina. Muflis sana, jail sini. Beli sana, rumah sini. HAHA!

*Cerita selingan*

It was dark. SA was driving, KC sat next to her while AZ was sitting at the back. Only ViVA could be seen on the road. No other cars were in sight. As SA drove, she suddenly saw something that blocked their way. It looked more or less like a carcass. She hit brake but KC told her to keep on driving. And she did. The car didn't bump afterward. So SA assumed that it was a plastic bag. AZ turned back and saw nothing.

Then they were distracted by the shortage amount of petrol. Haha, it was very hectic for all three of them. The light blinked non-stop.

When they were having dinner by the beach, KC finally opened up and said what she saw. Long hairs. SA was like, Oh it matched the carcass but we didn't feel anything. And KC said that, the road, has been the cause for several accidents because the drivers see things.

And when they got back to KC's house, everyone was afraid to go anywhere. Let alone the shower :P

Regards,

Amzyami.

91 - Harapan Palsu

2011-10-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

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Semua orang, saya ada cerita hampa. Cerita yang mengecewakan.

Tadi, pergi Carrefour dengan Ummi & Nys, untuk lunch. Dekat Carrefour ada Subway baru buka, so kami lunch dekat situ. On the way nak pergi Subway, kan dekat Carrefour ada banyaaak kedai-kedai baju kurung, jubah, tudung & brooches dekat situ kan. Mata saya terlekat sekat satu jubah yang sangat cantik, lawa dan cun. Bila hati dah terikat, apa boleh buat kan :P So pergi lah tanya Akak Kedai (AK) tu..

SA : Akak, jubah yang ni ada kaler ni je eh?

AK : Ha'ah dik. Adik nak beli ke?

SA : Oh, harga dia berapa kak?

AK : Satu, enam sembilah.

SA : (!!!) Umii, nak nak! (Hati dah melonjak keriangan) Satu enam puluh sembilan je Umi!

AK : Eh bukan lah adik, Seratus enam puluh sembilan.

SA : Oh lah kak, kenapa akak bagi saya harapan palsu -______- (Walked away dengan hati yang kecewa).

The moral of the story is, sila cakap dengan terang lagi-lagi dekat orang yang tengah semangat nak beli produk anda. Jangan bagi pelanggan harapan palsu.

Regards,

Amzyami.

90 - Sayang

2011-10-07T17:50:00.000+08:00

Kahkah, dekat blog Shaz & Fz pun ada ini gambar btw.

Peace be upon you reader(s).

So after our final exam ended, one by one left Nilai. And the final two person to leave Nilai were Nadie & I. It was very sadistic to see the dorm empty. As empty and dusty as how when we first came. I still remember the moment when we first arrived and unpacked our stuff. The moment when we first taaruf. The moment when Jamilah told us the story of how Cah & her got lost on their way to Giant. And the most unforgettable ones are;

When everyone went to block B to refill plenty of empty water with drinking water just to bathe, because there was water shortage in Nilai.

When we went iftar-ing together, even though not everyone could join but still, at least the effort to attend was there.

When they say spot checks were going to be held and we hid most of our illegal things in the empty locker :P

When itu when ini.

Haih. I've changed a lot, I think. To a betterment, I hope.

Haih. One semester is enough to make us this close. May the upcoming semester(s) will bring us even closer, even if we may not be in the same room (or dorm, for that matter), this friendship will remain forever, insyaAllah :)

I miss you guys already.

***

After Communication ended (WOOOTS), I texted every lecturers as a sign of appreciation, because back then in school we would be having the same teacher for a year kan. Dekat sini, we won't be taking the same subjects again. So, I texted them;

Assalamualaikum, Sir / Mdm. I'm Siti Amirah from group 809.

I'd like to thank you so much for everything.

Teaching really is a very noble thing to be done.

May this knowledge will be useful to you, myself and the ummah.

I apologize for anything wrong deeds that I have done.

Thanks again, may Allah bless all of you.

And their replies were;

Waalaikumsalam wbt.

You are very much welcome.

Saya juga begitu, terima kasih.

(Sir Ismail K, HSM 2123)

Salam.amirah (means princess right?)

Thank you for your message.

Glad you appreciated things I shared in the class.

Please pray for me also, okay.

Bil najah..

(Sir El, HSM 2143)

Wasalam, tqvm.

May Allah bless you too. Take care.

(Mdm Sza, HSM 2283)

Wsalam. May Allah bless you too!

(Sir Azib, HSM 2133)

Thanks for the text.

You are one of the best students.

May Allah bless you.

(Ms Sadrina, FIM 1233)

And, underneath everything, I'm touched that they replied my texts. Never expected them to do so. Hopefully I excel my final. Amin.

So now, my three-month holiday begins :D

Regards,

Amzyami.

89

2011-09-29T12:50:00.001+08:00

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So.

My final hasn't ended yet, but most of my dormmates dah habis.

I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous.

I think.

*Tapi ni hasad yang permissible :P

88

2011-09-24T03:22:00.000+08:00

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My title has been numbered back again. I just can't think of something good to be labelled as a fabulous title. So, yeah. Number je. Semua orang pun faham kan.

Final exam is just around the corner, yet I still have the guts to updating my blog - yay. My schedule is basically like this;

Monday : Basic Themes of Al-Quran

Wednesday : Sociology and Anthropology

Thursday : History

Friday : Political Science AND Computer

Monday : Communication

Haha frankly, I can still (insyaAllah) bear with the whole consecutive days thing but I can barely handle myself towards Friday. Can't wait to see how insane will I be.

Tadi dinner sama-sama dengan kawan sekolaaaah, yay rindu diorang :') Mula-mula tak terfikir pun, ehe. Tapi bila Nadiah Parman cerita yang budak-budak PJ selalu dinner sama-sama, iftar sama-sama, terus ada ter-jealous dekat situ :P So terus text budak al-Amin ajak dinner sekali dekat Kawah Thai. (Haha, sorry Shaz, kita tahu awak anti tuuuuuut*)

Seronooook tahu tak makan dengan diorang, sebab rasa macam dah lama tak bersua walaupun sekampus. Hehehe, masing-masing "busy". Walaupun mula-mula macam awkward sebab masing-masing macam taknak bukak cerita last-last, hah ambek. Semua orang nak cerita.

Bila makan dengan diorang teringat pulak kelas. Kitorang yang dekat Nilai ni semua sekelas. Banin dan banat. Semua asalnya 5 Suhaib ar-Rumi jugak. Anak-anak Cikgu Hadijah jugak.

Lepastu, tiba-tiba rindu Nik Nur Faqihah :( ♥

But I always call her every now and then, due to the fact that she has tonnes of hot stories recently. But the last time we met was during err.. Hari Guru kot? I'm not sure. I was very looking forward to meet her during iktikaf batch dekat masjid UIA baru-baru ni but she couldn't come so.. yeah was a bit frustrated but Nadiah Parman came :P

Bittaufiq wannajah likulli students. Carry marks dah lepas, result final dan pleasure and closure to Allah pula yang kita buru okay :)

Regards,

Amzyami

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2011-09-22T02:05:00.000+08:00

Time, is the most precious thing.
That is why it can't be bought nor stopped.

We are the ones who need to chase them.
We're not that honourable to have time waits for us.

Tick tock, tick tock.

Fragile, as it is.

2011-09-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

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Everyone knows that teenage is the age of crisis. This is when we tend to rebel. This is when we tend to search for the perfect identity. This is when, if you don't belong to the cool people, you'd die.

This is when you need comfort.

Specifically, a guy.

So usually normal teenagers seek for them. Normal teenagers would go out for a date, hold hands and I don't know, do stuff that teenagers usually do - text each other quite frequently, talk on the phone and such. Let me tell you something, mister. I'm not normal. I'm not them. I'm me. The boring old me.

I'm one of those teenagers who don't believe in love before akad. But being an ordinary amatullah, with girls' feelings and emotions, I honestly am not sure how long can I stay this way. If a person consistently try to reach you, you will soon become melted and then ... Wallahua'lam.

Ye lah, if a person is too persistent, and doesn't give up you will soon feel, aaa, I can't find the right term but you know what I mean. Instead, the person should be like a total gentleman and go straight to your parents.

That is why I thank Allah for granting me the Roses and Kak Kiahs (: InsyaAllah they are always there to remind me every now and then.

*

Final exam mode kicks in right away. Go Kak Kiahs! >.<

Regards,

Amzyami.

Gone by the wind.

2011-09-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

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Alhamdulillah, another week went by quite smoothly I guess. No, I lied. This week started off pretty well, it started off with my birthday :P This week was also filled with quizzes - yes indeed, we had quiz every day - , presentations, assignments and also, events and meetings.

I could barely sleep before 12, because caffeine was my best friend throughout the week. And also some roti and biskut raya and things like that. Thank goodness, tomorrow is public holiday or else we might be having replacement class or something.

Finally everything is over with and now I can soothe my mind at home (I hope :P)

Most of the classes ended this week, we won't be having that many classes next week. It was quite sadistic (aicewah) that we won't be having few of the subjects next semester. But it is also quite interesting when I recalled myself that then I would have only one semester to go, and Hi Gombak!

Mudah-mudahan takde repeat.
Mudah-mudahan excel ye result semua!
And I wish all the best, bittaufiq wannajah & study smart to my dorm mates The Topi Sengets, my classmates The 809 Nilainees :)

Mana-mana pun, matlamat kita sama.

2011-09-09T11:53:00.000+08:00

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Apa khabar iman kita hari ni? Puasa 6 dah habis? *Check balik*.

Haih, sekarang ni musim. Musim raya. Musim quiz. Musim jamuan. Musim assignment. And also,

Musim kawan-kawan fly.

Kalau sekarang ni musim yang Middle East lah kot? Or maybe September memang musim fly sebab semua students check-in? Either way lah.

Kalau tengok budak batch pun, kawan-kawan sekolah dulu, yang dah lama sekelas sama dari sekolah rendah sampailah sekolah menengah, ramai yang nak fly. Rasanya batch tahun ni memang sangat ramai kot. Or, sebelum ni ramai jugak tapi sebab tak too-attached macam mana ukhuwah kita dengan batch sendiri kan.

Memanglah, perasaan cemburu tu ada. Dari dulu lagi simpan impian nak belajar dekat New Zealand. Dekat situ, ada lembu hitam-putih yang susah nak jumpa dekat Malaysia :P Dekat situ, kadar pollution dia tak extreme lagi, dia greeeeen sangat. Dekat situ, butter sedap-sedap :P Dekat situ jugak, ada AUT. Dekat AUT, ada journalism. Waaaaah. Last year dah cakap dah dekat Umi,

"Ummi, ni final year kita raya dekat Malaysia. Next year dah dekat New Zealand :("

Haha impian hanya tinggal kenangan. Tapi apakan daya, Allah dah tetapkan saya untuk stay dan berbakti di CFS Nilai ni :)

Buat kawan-kawan yang nak fly, dah fly, akan fly, teringin nak fly, teruskan perjuanngan anda. Dekat mana pun kita ni, matlamat kita tetap sama. Mardhatillah wa taqarrub ilaihi. Belajar elok-elok. Mungkin homesick tu ada, menangis tu ada. Yang dekat Nilai ni pun ada yang homesick apatah lagi yang oversea sana kan. Menuntut ilmu tu satu jihad. So, be strong ayte everyone.

Wallahua'lam.

Regards,

Amzyami.

Coming back.

2011-09-07T01:15:00.000+08:00

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So my previous entry was posted approximately a month ago. Entah kenapa lah makin malas nak update blog. Nak delete, sayang. Nak privatize-kan, hati kata TAK BOLEH. Haha gedik. Okay let's proceed.

Currently finishing Communication assignment. Ya, saya suka Communication. Dah berangan nak jadi pemberita ever since I was 9. Tapi bila dah jadi makin besar dan matang *ehem ehem B) tukar lah jadi better sikit, writer ke, columnist (!!!!!) ke, journalist ke, tapi bila dekat CFS ni dah start belajar Communication rasa macam,

...

Tapi sebab passion tu ada so best ke tak best ke saya tetap minat. Ye, saya seorang yang loyal :P

There are so many things to be done before the finals (which is going to be in approximately 2-3 weeks). I'm so loving the situation in which I'm facing at the moment.

Ramadan Kareem!

2011-08-13T23:41:00.001+08:00

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So, yes. Ramadan is here. I'm sorry for the late entry about Ramadan, not that you guys read my blog anyway -,-'

Cerita hari ini : Rusuhan di London.

Haha okay tipu. I'm at home, currently. It's quite a good thing that I don't have to go to HS punya Leadtrain, because I went to Econs'. Soooooo, after being so tensed for not getting to celebrate (as in sahur and iftar) together with my family, I smiled so wide even everyone was sick of it, I got a chance to go back home!

So dekat rumah ni, makan makin wow lah kan, I'm scared to go on the scale -,-' Sekali tetiba berat menaik ke, hambekk. Terketar-ketar karang.

Breaking news from home : Fezzy kena chicken pox!

My baby sister who is now twelve y/o (considered as baby sebab paling kecil, walaupun sebenarnya 'tak'), was infected with chicken pox from our cousin - Sumaiyah! Haha! Kakak, Tee, Mii and Nys semua kena chicken pox waktu kecik comel dulu. But poor Fezzy lah, because she's currently having her 3rd UPSR trial (seriously, trial UPSR melambak-lambak tapi PMR dengan SPM satu je T_______T) But it's okay, let us all pray that Fezzy will be fine before Raya and most importantly, before UPSR okay, ameeeeeen :)

PS; Dah lama tak post benda macam dulu. Tunggu ilham datang yaaa :D

2011-08-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

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It has been SOOO long since the last time I updated my blog.

Anways. Bye :P

Ramadhan Kareem peeps. May this Ramadhan is better than the previous one, with new determinations and new hopes to be fulfilled.

Ps; Won't be celebrating Ramadhan with family. I've got tonnes of things to be taken care of :S

The Gate of Garden Knowledge & Virtue!

2011-06-06T12:44:00.000+08:00

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WARNING : This is an utterly LONG entry.

I'm now a CFS IIUM student (obviously)/ Of course some Al-Aminians would say, "Blergh, UIA jugak. Main campus sebelah sekolah je." But it's okay, this is MY right to choose and YOUR right to comment :)

Arts Based Programme students registered on the 29th of May. We registered at PJ Campus. There are only two Mahallahs there, Khadijah College and Zainab College. I was one of the KC members. Trust me, our Taaruf Week wasn't as hectic as others. Perhaps the focus was more on PJ Campus' residents. So us - who were going to move to Nilai anyway - had too much free time. We ate, slept, walked around the campus for no reason - and those were it.

TESTS.

On Tuesday (31st), we had our English & Arabic Placement Tests. I was very sleepy while doing both papers. English was okay, though the last two passages given were not entertaining. I hated my essay too, btw. Arabic was uh, hard. WAYY harder than Bahasa Arab Tinggi. But we did our best, we strived, and insyaAllah will achieve the best as well (AMIIIIIIIINN). Oh BTW result keluar esok sebab tu macam indecisive lagi ni. These tests determine how long will we be staying here in CFS. In between these two papers we had another paper, FKT (Fundamental Knowledge Test - Fardhu 'Ain). It was nearly the same as Darjah 6's PAFA so, yeah :)

We also had another test, (YAAA, taaruf week stressful sebab tests sangat banyak), Tilawah Entrance Test. Basically, just like school's tilawah exam. We had to read half a page of the Qur'an and the Ustaz will determine your level.

BAI'AH & CLOSING CEREMONY.

We were supposed to have it at the field, but the clouds were crying. So, we went back to KC. We sat in the lobby of each floors (BTW KC has nine floors, ada lift of course). It was heart wrenchingggg, we heard the fireworks thingie, but we couldn't see it. Plus, friends from ZC texted me saying they were going to watch it live on the big screen. While us in KC, we had nothing. We sat crowdedly (there's no such word, I know -,-) under the canopy then, and listened to committee's tazkeerah.

BUT THEN, the Dean came to KC and we had our own closing ceremony :) I believed that KC had the best closing ceremony that night.We had our bai'ah and sang the CFS song. Afterwards everyone went back to their own room and Nilai students started packing.

That was a boring summary for taaruf week. Currently I'm in Nilai Campus. It is better here, more choices of food (HAHA) and uh, much more freedom I think. Even though we live in dorms (18 people per dorm) but at least the room isn't always quiet.

Aaaand, can't wait for class to start -,- I'm dead bored and I didn't bring any novels to be read.

So long peeps.

Regards,

Amzyami.

Everyone has a fantabulous dream :)

2011-05-27T01:29:00.001+08:00

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Lepas komplen yang diri sendiri malas nak update blog, tiba-tiba spirit untuk update blog tu datang. Wah, kalau lah komplen dari dulu, mesti dah banyak entri saya post sepanjang cuti ni.

Nak cerita pasal impian ni sebenarnya. Impian masa depan! *nada serius*

Rasa macam baru je semalam main batu seremban bawah meja dekat sekolah - konon nak sorok barang larangan - dalam kelas dengan kawan. Rasa macam baru je semalam lawan dengan kawan tengok getah in-out siapa paling panjang. Waah, sekolah rendah memang saat yang worries-free.

Okay tiba-tiba rewind. Kata masa depan -,-

Lip lap lip lap, dah nak masuk kolej dah budak ni.

Hai! Saya bakal mahasiswi IIUM! (IIUM dengar macam WOW sikit, kalau UIAM macam err, ehe). Impian untuk jadi journalist sebenarnya mula dari darjah 3 lagi (melampau takkk). Ye, saya tahu budak-budak selalu nak jadi doktor, polis, bomba dsb tapiii, saya nak jadi wartawan :B Sebabnya, saya banyak cakap. Lepastu, rasa macam famous kalau dapat jadi pembaca berita. Kalau dekat TV3, lagi lagi Buletin Utama, pehhh memang terkenal lah. Tapi tu dulu.

Waktu form 3, nak jadi journalist yang tulis artikel dekat surat khabar tu. Time ni tiba-tiba ketagih baca novel, so minat nak tulis tu membuak-buak. NST ke, Star ke. Best nye! Ni semua gara-gara lelaki yang saya kagumi. Karya dia memanglah tersangat inspirational. Saya pun nak jadi macam hero dalam cerita Marley & Me. Dia ada column sendiri dalam paper. Lepastu, nak cut out semua artikel, buat scrapbook. Syok nye! Lagipun, inspirational writings bukan boleh bari inspirasi dekat orang lain je, diri sendiri pun secara tak langsung akan ter-motivasi jugak :) Waktu ni, memang dah set nak pursue Mass Communication :)

Tiba-tiba.. ada sorang pakar psikologi ni - let's call him Dr. A - bagi talk dekat satu program tu. Baru lah tahu yang Mass Comm tu ada banyak cabang dia (ya, saya sangat cetek dalam bab ni. tahu satu benda malas nak explore). Since then, rasa nak jadi Public Admin pulak - ye, bukan journalism tapi public relation. Sebabnya, seronok dapat berkomunikasi dengan orang lain. Lagi-lagi lepas ada brother tu bagitahu kalau public relation ni, boleh jadi duta XD Bahagia nye!

Tapi apa-apa pun, kalau tak word hard, melayanglaaa impian ni ha. So, sila work hard ye Amirah.

Tanpa keberanian, mimpi tidak bermakna! XD -Soal Hati.

Regards,

Amzyami.

Aha!

2011-05-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

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Lame as how I usually might have been, I actually got someone to talk to on the cbox *surprised*.

So in order to answer the very first of your question, er, I can't post it up here, but I surely can give you the link of the tutorials. You see, I thought of actually posting it, but I just read the KAU COPY KAU MATI thing and I realized that it's her property so yeah. Plus she has tonnes of other tutorials to customize your blog. Not a plain colourful childish one like mine - but I actually kind of like it :P

Oh another thing - yang pasal blog tu. Your ayat quite berputar belit, haha. If you're referring to the followers, ya sure nobody would know. Because for instance, Blog A ada follower(s) and blog B takda, tapi in your profile ada both of those blogs listed, so even though orang tu follow A, dia still boleh baca B. Unless of course, you remove it on your profile as how I did, or just make it a private blog.

Regards,

Amzyami.

Hitting back the book(s)!

2011-05-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

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In order not to let Ustaz Ayub down, nor do I want to let Cikgu Rushida down, I have to re-study Bahasa Arab Tinggi & English. Hehehe luckily I still have my last year's BAT notes. One phewww there.

And today, my sisters (Kak & Tee) and I had a little competition. We posted the same status and by the end of this day - which will be on 2359 hrs - we'll see who gets the most LIKE. And guess what? Ummi posted on her Facebook demanding her friends to like our status-es. HAHA, okay.

Regards,

Amzyami.

Lost, I'm lost.

2011-05-24T18:05:00.000+08:00

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One thing I realized about this blog is - I've lost my blogging mojo. I used to write like three entries per week but nowww, entoh le. Perhaps, my months of nothingness have nothing interesting to be shared with most of you.

But, beneath it all, I know that I've filled this oh-so-long holiday with things I will never regret, hopefully :)

Actually I want to write about scarves nowadays. Tudung. Veil.

You know how many years ago people just wear the plain old square veil? Then you fold it into half and it becomes triangular then you put it on your head and so on. It is so really much more simple rather than the shawls women wear. It is easier to wear, can actually go trekking with it (cuba kalian pakai shawl then pergi trekking, haha fatal I tell you). Plus, the plain old square veil takes you like 3 minutes to wear. Shawl takes you like errr, 15 minutes? I'm not sure, but that's how long I usually wait for my sister to get ready :P

I don't have grudge against shawl-wearer (?) HAHA. But the way they convolute the shawl makes it look even weirder. With all the metal-like thingie hanging, then pakai pulak macam nak tercabut je, ehe. I don't think it's worth the 15 minutes you took to put it on.

Regards,

Amzyami

Of names and aliases.

2011-05-09T03:11:00.000+08:00

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Many of us have been called names before. So far, in my nearly-eighteen years of living, I've never met a person who has been called by their full name. Like, a full four syllabus-ed name. Nobody has ever called me Siti Amirah during an ordinary conversation before :S

Some people I've met have weird nicknames, too. Names like Kiub (:P), Basbousa and Karat. I mean, come on, how can a 3 dimensional shape inspires you to call your friend? Basbousa? Isn't that.. a food? Don't let me start with Karat. Oh, need I mention what I'm known as?

My family calls me Amirah. Little cousins call me Kak Mira / Em (pronounced as empire Em, not emak Em). A few call me Siti. My junior school friends call me Mira. High school friends call me Mirer. Ami. Mii. Mimi. Mer. I got to admit, their creativity to produce lots of nicknames out of a name is quite brilliant :B BUT, I frankly don't really like that. Call me Mirer, what does it even mean? Amirah la, baru doa :) Or, worst case scenario is Siti. Or Mii.

These few years have got me thinking, if I were to name my son or daughter, one word with two syllabuses would be perfectly fine. Such as Iffah and Zharif. Their names are too short to be shorten some more, so people will finally call them by their FULL name, which also means that they will pray for them to be as how their names mean.

To sum everything up, calling names are like praying the best for them. If your name is like Amirah, don't simply allow people to call you Mirer. At least, something that is originally from your name. Ami for instance. Or, if you're the girly geli type, Ira. Just names that won't make people ask you, "Why Mirer? What does it even mean anyway?"

+_________________+

Regards,

Amzyami.

A Blessing In Disguise :)

2011-05-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

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I haven't packed my things yet, and currently I'm having lots of doubts of whether I should go to this programme, that event, or just ignore them all.

So currently, this week saya memang full. Next week, free lah I think. But my weekends are all booked. So, if you want to ask me out on a date (HAHA) or something girls, weekdays only ya.

Anyway, my sister told me something yesterday (or was it the day before :/) about fees. Yeah perhaps none of us actually realize how much our parents have spent for us from the beginning of this year (or ever since you started high school). You might have thought;

"Program ni murah je, RM30 untuk 3 malam!"

Little did I realize that from the beginning of this month, up until today, I have exceed RM500. But, have I changed? That RM30 may be nothing, but if you follow the programme monthly, and pay it monthly, for five months, will the RM150 be worth it? If I change for the better, yeah it will be worth it but if I stay the same? Yeah that was a rhetorical question, btw.

Underneath it all, I met many new friends and seniors who will insyaAllah bring me to the right path and will help me to stay istiqaamah and also, change for the best.

I'm done counting!

2011-04-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

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As you can see, I can't be sure whether you've noticed it or not, my title doesn't contain any numbers in it :P This is due to excessive laziness caused by mental illness during months of nothingness. Haha okay :P

I've made a few changes in this blog, comments have been disabled and replaced by this cute (vain, AGAIN) cbox on the right side of this blog.

Today's horror story :

I nearly got hit by a black Viva. If I was alone, the guilt won't be that horrid, but my mother and two little (not very little, they're nearly as tall as I am -,-) sisters are in the passenger seats. THAT, would make me live surrounded by guilt and would blame myself for the rest of my life.

All I've got to say is Alhamdulillah, Allah has saved us four and He has cautioned me. He made me realize that next time, I have to be more careful. Death is everywhere. Death is near. So, we have to always be prepared. Remember, work like you'll live forever and pray like you'll die tomorrow.

Regards,

Amzyami

72 - Perasan kejap

2011-04-18T13:48:00.002+08:00

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Tiba-tiba rasa blog ni comel dengan kaler yang berkelip-kelip dan lagu yang comel.

71 - Top priority

2011-04-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

Salam aman buat (semua) para pembaca.

Kadang-kadang kita rasa yang kita ni dah cukup ithaar (utamakan orang lain).

Kita dengan kawan nak berebut shepherd's pie yang satu. Kita pun bagi dia makan.

Kita beli air. Then kawan minta. Botol yang tak dibuka tu terus bagi dia suruh dia minum.

Kita cari kerja. Ada satu je vacancy. Kita ajak kawan then kawan dapat kerja.

Then tiba-tiba, bila kita sedar kawan kita dapat semua secara first class, kita pun terfikir.

Kenapa asyik kita je yang bagi dia segala peluang? Padahal, dia tu macam tak mendahulukan kita pun.

Fikir-fikir balik, the world isn't about you, and you only. Mungkin kawan kita tu dah penat jaga hati kakak / adik / abang / kawan dia, sampai dia pun dah tak larat nak jaga hati kita T,T

Once kita dah rasa tak puas hati sebab kita asyik bagi dia segala peluang yang ada, adakah itu masih digelar ithaar? Cek balik, repair lah mana-mana yang patut.

Dalam entri ni, saya ada cerita pasal seorang psiko yang call rumah lepastu hang up. Then buat benda yang sama. Berulang kali. So dekat sini saya nak cakap yang, saya dah tahu siapa dia. Rupanya, the so-called psycho tu,

seorang nenek yang tersilap nombor.

Haritu dia telefon, nak cakap dengan Yusuf katanya.

"Yusuf? Salah nombor."

"Oh, salah ye? Ni siapa?"

*Hung up*

"Helo? Yusuf?"

"Mak Cik, makcik salah nombor lah, dalam rumah ni takde Yusuf."

"Yusuf takde? Ni siapa?"

*Hung up*

Maaf makcik, saya ter-suudzon (buruk sangka) dan ter-panggil makcik psiko. Serius, lepas dapat tahu yang makcik ni sebenarnya harmless dan tak mungkin akan pecah masuk rumah dan kidnap saya, terus saya (dan adik) ketawa gila-gila.

Regards,

Amzyami.

70 - Dear You

2011-04-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

Dear You,

If only time machines were real, I would return back to the times when we were neighbours and the moments when we go to school together, do homeworks together, be in class together, have recess together, laugh eat play shop together.

We did a lot of lunatic thins. We had lots of sleepovers. You always hung up at my place, with your baju kurung. You never liked to wear any other baju. If only I were as mature (ehem) as I am now, I'd like to wear baju kurung wherever I go too!

Time passes right through both you and I. Now, you can bake cake! Four years ago, you didn't even have the courage to lit the fire (HAHA!). Mr. Siddiqui caught us punching each other and he told the whole class not to "wrestle like Amirah and Najwa". Mr. (tak ingat nama dia, taught me Geo and we called him Mr Kacak) caught us hand-wrestling and he said "Out of many students here I never expected to see both of YOU hand-wrestle!".

Good old times.

Remember when Mahmoud had a crush on you? HAHAHAH. Cookies during breaks. Pasta. Lasagna. The SR1 juice (we usually bought lemonade though). Sandwiches. OH DURING PE LESSON! Okay there's too many to be mentioned. I will list down each and every one of them when I see you - which will probably be this summer, right?

Till then, all the best for your exam! I know you'll ace!

And for you readers, I know I never really reveal any of my Dear You recipients, but I will reveal this one girl. (Bunyi macam penjenayah)

Em, Wa, Nys.

al-Haram, Hajj 2007.

Regards,

Amzyami.

69 - Up and Down, happens all the time.

2011-04-03T15:05:00.000+08:00

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(This is an utterly emotional entry.)

Have you ever felt like you don't belong? Like, everything will be better without you in the big picture.

Like Bella Swan said, "I am unwanted and un-want-able."

As in, no matter how hard you try to be nice to others, they don't even appreciate your kindness. They don't even remember them - or worse, they can't even tell whether you're being nice or not. Everyone becomes happier when you're away - they go to someplace nice, eat luxurious food. When you're with them, everything gets bitter and boring. When they're talking to you, they talk strictly while with other people, they become all so goody-goody and sweety-sweety (?). It is hard regarding that you still love them no matter what. The bond is too strong, even the negative emotions can't overtake it.

Sometimes, it is as if they don't even care whether you've eaten or not. But then when you get sick, they blame you for not taking care of yourself. They get mad at you for not being where you should be but when you achieve something, they get all so "Oh I know her! We are very close together!". Ha?

Perhaps I should go somewhere else, where I belong.

If you've experienced this kind of emotion, then,

we are on the same boat.

Regards,

Amzyami.

68 - There's a light at the end of the tunnel :)

2011-03-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

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I would like to congratulate each and every SPM candidates 2010, be it all As or no A at all, let bygones be bygones. We are all winners ya! (Ayat tipikal)

From now onwards, everyone is busy applying this, applying that, going here, going there. Many are still undecided about what course they should pursue upon. No worries, do whatever your heart tells you to. As long as it isn't against the religion, feel free to do it.

Okay I'm waaaaaaaaaaaay out of topic. Actually I've been wanting to share this with you reader(s);

I met Tuan Syed Abu Bakar when he was the headmaster of Sik English School . He opened the school from nothing . Not even a chair or a desk . Not even a piece of chalk . He was alone .He had to run to and fro searching for everything . Borrowed the left-out colonial benches from Sekolah Melayu Sik . He walloped everything that comes through .At that time there were no lorries in Sik . He carried the left-over benches by a bullock-cart belong to the district office . He 'tumpang' the verandah of the community hall for his class . He was not only the headmaster but a teacher , office-boy , clerk , the school caretaker , the sweeper and the canteen-man . He represented everybody that needs to run a school . He collected school fees by barter trading . Parents brought eggs and chickens . He transfered those to money but buying the products . During fruits season ,he had to buy the fruits . Whaooo , what teacher he was.

Sik was then still rural,very rural . No good roads , no electricity , no water-supply . Nothing at all . Luckily there was a rest house , only the house with no facilities . It was there Tuan Syed slept and his only friend was Dollah Panjang . Dollah was a left-out boy . He had no proper education even at sekolah melayu . Dollah assisted Tuan Syed when asked for . If Tuan Syed being called to the education office in Alor Setar , it was Dollah who looked after the school . When Tuan Syed was away , Dollah will tell everybody around that he was the assistant headmaster. By no time . Dollah also could speak english . Tuan Syed gave no chance conversing in english . Even the rural parents could utter a few words of english.

When the school building was built in the middle of the kampong , there was still no proper road . It was fit only for kumpulan kembara FWD . It was a mile from pekan Sik . Tuan Syed was no panic . He only grumbled , who the hell chose the site . He had to buy a lambretta to go to school. During rainy season he used his KAKI ( walk) .

As times goes by , Sekolah Aneka Jurusan was introduced . Tuan Syed once more was chosen to run that school . Also from nothing . He had to 'tumpang' sekolah melayu Sik and the chinese school . He had to run the classes in the afternoon. So Tuan Syed now hold 2 posts : as headmaster of Sik English School and The supervisor of Sekolah Menengah Aneka Jurusan Sik . Till then he had still no school clerk for both schools . He used his own pocket money and employed Cik Sopiah Abd. Rahim as a school clerk . Her salary was 30 ringgit a month.

God willing , I will write more about Tuan Syed and other kirkbyites that I know ........so standby .

Till we meet again .
Regards to all.

- Written by matisaa_02

And that was a story about my late-grandfather. He was a very inspiring man, and he was my inspiration. I want to be like him - someone else's inspiration. And THAT is my ultimate (duniawi :P) goal. So, for those who didn't score as high as expected, or lower than expected, it's okay. Even I didn't score that much T,T but I know that if my late-grandfather could do something inspirational from scratch, why can't I?

Jom! Kita cuba jadi inspiration orang lain, from different aspects lah of course :)

Regards,

Amzyami.

67 - Mr. Writer

2011-03-18T00:05:00.002+08:00

Peace be upon you reader(s)!

For some reason, I'm feeling all enthusiastic right now. And I'm uber excited to re-share what I shared with my readers three years ago, in my very first public blog. (FYI, I had so many public blogs. I kept on re-linking, re-creating and re-deleting. So, let us all hope this current blog of mine will stay alive until the moment it has to be stopped :P )

(Beliau adalah sangat comelllll, haha geli)

For those who may not know the fact that I have the hots for Paulo Coelho, I'm telling you now that I have the hots for him. His writings inspire me, teach me the values of life aaaand, I want to be like him. He is 64 years old so, don't tell me that I should not have the hots for him ( I repeat the same words all over again -,- Camne nak jadi macam Coelho kalau ceni T,T ) He started his career as a journalist okay, so, if Allah allows me to, I will start my career just like him :P Okay enough of promoting him T,T Back to the actual topic. One of his most heart-touching piece is The Pencil. No, not the one we learnt in English Lit Form 1. I edited his piece, to make it sounds more me-ish :P

An ordinary pencil has five qualities that resemble human life. Little do we realize that these five qualities bring a huge impact on us.

One; A pencil always need a hand to guide its steps. As for us, our journeys are planned by Allah, and He guides us according to His will.

Two; Every now and then, the pencil becomes blunt and we need to stop writing just to sharpen them. We have to - I repeat, HAVE to - go through sorrows and many obstacles in order to make us more alert and of course, sharper.

Three; Usually pencils have erasers behind them, to rub out every mistakes the guider did. Which means, it isn't wrong for us to try correcting all the mistakes we have done. It will avoid us from falling down the same hole twice. Or thrice, for that matter.

Four; The thing that stands out a pencil is not the wooden exterior, it's the lead inside that gives out such amazing result. So, always pay attention of what is happening inside you. Internal beauty is what one should see, not physically.

Five; It always leaves a mark. Every single step we make will always leave a mark. We should be conscious of what we are doing, to ensure whether we leave behind a positive, or negative mark.

( Teringat baca buku ni dekat Bukit Tinggi. Jaulah dengan kawan-kawan + Cikgu Farha + Cikgu Akma. Good times, ey XD )

Regards,

Amzyami.

66 - Bukan Halloween la!

2011-03-03T17:40:00.001+08:00

Salam & Hi, dearest readers!

Semalam, seharian saya nampak macam mayat hidup (?) sebab habiskan sepanjang masa tengok CSI:NY, Year 4. Okay mungkin macam takde kaitan, tapi kalau anda baca sampai habis boleh la nampak kaitan dia kot.

Ada satu episode yang ditayangkan waktu Halloween. Episode dia agak seram. Memandangkan saya sendiri pun nampak macam mayat hidup semalam, jadi takde lah seram sangat.

Tapi, kejadian harini yang seram. Kejadian yang bermula dengan benda yang simple,

A phone call.

Saya angkat phone atas, Anisah angkat phone bawah (ye, Anisah tak sekolah harini :P). Perbualan dia begini;

Amirah : Hello, Assalamualaikum?
Psiko : Hello, ni siapa?
Amirah : Oh, ni Amirah. Ni siapa?
Psiko : Ohhh, Amirah. Amirah tak kerja ke?
Amirah : Hehe, tak. Duduk rumah je.
Psiko : ... *hangs up the phone*

Kalau baca takde lah seram, tapi suara Psiko tu macam suara nenek-nenek kebayan (macam pernah dengar -,-), taktau la lelaki ke perempuan, suara serak-serak gitu. Then, saya jerit, terus turun bawah. Anisah pun takut. Entah siapa-siapa yang call, tahu-tahu kami duduk berdua je dekat rumah. Then, phone bunyi lagi.

Psiko : Hello?
Amirah : *terus letak phone*

Badan dah seram-seram sejuk. Terus call Abah. Tapi, Abah tak angkat. Busy kot. Call Ummi pulak.

Amirah : Hello, Assalamualaikum, Ummi!
Ummi : Waalaikumsalam, awat?
Amirah : UMI ADA PSIKO CALL RUMAH *nak menangis* *cerita segalanya*
Ummi : Laa.. Yang awak bagitau nama betul pasaipa?
Amirah : Mana la kita nak tahu yang dia psiko!

Then try call Abah balik, tak angkat-angkat. Text Abah suruh call handphone, bukan landline. Sengaja je letak phone rumah tak betul, tak berani nak dengar dia ring lagi sekali.

Then Abah call handphone,

Amirah : ABAH ADA PSIKO CALL RUMAH! *cerita segalanya* :P
Abah : Jangan keluar rumah. Phone rumah biar je letak tak betul.
Amirah : Abah, kain tak sidai lagi camne? Tak payah sidai la eh, ehehe.
Abah : Ha.. ok ok *malas nak layan*

Itu je cerita seram dia. Dan sekarang, saya tak berani nak duduk rumah sorang-sorang dah.

Cuba bayangkan ye si gadis-gadis comel dan cantik dekat luar sana, kalau awak duduk sorang-sorang dekat rumah, then orang call ke apa ke. Kalau dia tahu awak duduk sorang. Ha, pergi beli pepper spray cepat!

And if, just IF, ini satu prank semata, orang yang mem-prank tu adalah sangat jahat sebab dia buat hati sorang gadis (haha) fobia nak angkat landline.

Regards,

Amzyami.

65 - Confusion

2011-02-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

Salam & Hi, dearest readers!

"Result keluar 23 Mac, konfem. Mak Cik bagitahu tadi."

"Aaa, kan tahun-tahun lepas keluar bulan Mac. Mestila tahun ni keluar Mac jugak!"

"Paling tidak pun, 12/13 Mac ni, korang dapatla result tu."

"Betul la, paper kita semua ada problem. Kena re-take SPM."

"Lapar lah. Jom pergi makan."

Sebagai seorang lepasan SPM 2010 (cey), anda mesti tak terlepas daripada khabar angin seperti ini.

Cumanya, yang ke-4 tu nauzubillah la. Buku semua dah bagi orang, nak studi cemane? :/

Nak cakap sikit je sebenarnya. Result tu, cepat ke, lambat ke, kita akan dapat jugak. Takut ke, gementar (?) ke, kita akan dapat jugak. Eksaited ke, seronok ke, kita akan dapat jugak.

Walaupun nanti kalau pergi sekolah rasa macam nak pitam.

Walaupun takut lepas buka slip nanti dah taknak jumpa sesiapa.

Walaupun takut lepas buka slip nanti impian dah tak boleh dicapai.

Walaupun takut lepas buka slip nanti TERmeraung sana sini.

Okay makin lama makin seram, haha. Tapi look on the bright side lah, daripada kita tunggu lamaaaa nak dapat result tu dan mesti makin gementar, baik kita dapat result cepat.

Tengok orang yang ambil STAM & STPM, diorang dah tahu keputusan. Kita?

Tunggu je lah.

Regards,

Amzyami.

64 - After such a long long time,

2011-02-18T10:24:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi, dearest readers!

Today, I just realized that I haven't been depressed for such a long time!

I forgot how it feels like to be under pressure, and earlier today, the feeling knocked the door of my heart, and it entered.

And now I'm depressed.

But hey, let's look at it this way, being sad over friends like THAT, is definitely not worth it. So yeah, I need a bar of chocolate.

Regards,

Amzyami.

63 - Bear this in mind, everyone!

2011-02-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi, dearest readers!

Lemme start with a rhetorical question,

Have you ever met someone who is ABSOLUTELY different in upfront and in social website?

HAH. Tipu tak pernah.Okaylah, senang cerita macam ni.

Anda ada sorang kawan yang tersaaaaangatlah pendiam, nak suruh buka mulut pun macam ada emas permata dalam mulut tu kan. TAPI, dalam internet dia punyalaaaah, ya Allah! Kecoh sana-sini, komen itu komen ini, kalau boleh dekat semua ceruk lah muka dia ada! Gambar pun perghh, pout sana, bend sini, sempang sana, high heels sini.

Itu jenis pertama. Yang kedua pulak,

Kalau upfront punyalaaaah baik, cakap keluar hadith, ayat qur'an. Sampai kadang-kadang kita pun segan. Ikhtilat, pandangan, semua terjaga. Tip top you! TAPI, dalam internet, huh. Sorry to say, tapi respect memang jatuh meredum. Komen gambar perempuan cakap "HOTSTUFF :)", mesej lelaki/perempuan cakap pasal benda yang tehpape. Contoh benda tehpape, "Buatpe tuuuuuu?" or boleh jadi jugak just by a simple "Hi Siti!". Ataupun, melayan ke remply-mereply komen dengan lelaki/perempuan.

Itu jenis kedua. Yang ketiga pulak,

Upfront sangatlah bising, radius sejauh 2km boleh dengar dia melalak. Tapi dalam internet senyap je. Ha, yang ni takpe la juga kot.

Heh. Sukahati je nak label label orang.

I'm saying this publicly. I'm not pointing my index finger to you and say "YOU'RE NUMBER TWO! Dasar hipokrit."

Cuma, baik kita refleks balik apa yang orang tu buat dengan apa yang kita buat. Kaaaalau lah kan, ada orang tengok kita punya komen-komen ni, then sesenang gitu je dia nak hilang respect, rugi tahu? Kalau sekali dia disrespect, entah macam mana laaa nak gain respect dia balik. Nanti kalau kita cakap dekat depan, dia boleh je cakap dekat kawan-kawan dia "Eh dia tu cakap je berhabuk tapi dia pun dua kali lima jugak". Then tersebar luaslah cerita buruk anda~ (Tiba-tiba imaginasi terlampau macam dalam komik yang semua orang berbisik tiap kali dia berjalan, fuhhhh)

Conclusion-nya di sini ya, kan islam dah letak limit untuk kita jaga pergaulan. Kalau benda yang remeh-temeh, takat "haha" "okay fiiiiiiine~" tu, tak perlu lahh. Kalau kita tak jaga pergaulan, jangan lupa ada satu makhluk yang dok ber-hooooray-dia-masuk-perangkap-aku dekat sebelah kita ni!

Ingat Rasulullah pesan,

Syaitan itu duduk mencangkung di atas hati manusia, apabila manusia menyebut Allah ia akan mengundurkan diri dan apabila manusia lalai ia akan membisikkan kejahatan.

Wallahua'lam.

Regards,

Amzyami.

62 - Memories are never to be forgotten.

2011-02-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi, dearest readers!

Betul kan, we will never appreciate the well until it is dried out.

Back then, before school ended, everyone looked forward to have their freedom (probably not everyone but stilllll, majority lah). Look at how much we are enjoying our freedom now?

Haven't you had enough? I know I have.

I can't stop myself from smiling each time I look at the photos, ah. Al-Amin. Too many things that made me smile, cry, laugh and also angry. I experienced lots of ups and downs that make me value my life and friends.

I can't stop myself from rewinding my memory to remember the reminisce we all had. How childish we were. How stupid that action was. How cool was I (HAHA :P) and of course, How perfect he was.

In the end though, we have to grow up. Time doesn't wait for us. As the clock ticks, a second passed. Then another. Then another. Little did we realize that we are now in our 18th year of living. EIGHTEEN.

Not just high school la of course. Primary school was precious, too ♥

Bubblis. Semut api. CGMG (hahaha).

All of these are impossible to forget!

And this year's first camp I attended. Who says a month isn't enough for the bond to be stronger than ever? Everyone gets excited to reunite again, eventhough we knew each other for just one month.

Ahhhhh how I regret myself for not appreciating more about what I was going through. I want to be young again (not that I'm uber old now), to think like kids do, to have nil problems. But hey, this is after all something we call life, right?

You see, as I'm writing this down, I realize that my life hasn't been wasted after all. Of course, a few bits of this and that are a total regret but they were definitely worth it because then I met my friends.

Who I was has shaped me to be who I am.

An ordinary woman (I refuse to call myself a girl. A teenager would be okay but a woman sounds better :P) , who will try to be extraordinary.

As we go on, we remember,

All the times we had together.

As our lives change, from whatever,

We will still be friends forever.
♥

Regards,

Amzyami.

61 - K I T A :)

2011-02-04T19:37:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi dearest readers!

Harini, saya nak kongsi perbualan, yang mungkin tak begitu bermakna buat anda tapi sangat sangat sangat menyentuh hati saya :')

Dekat kolah.

"EH? al-Amin bukan asrama?"

"Ye laaah, haha sebab tu kitorang tak berapa nak biasa dengan suasana macam ni~"

"Oh la ye keeee. Kita ingatkan asrama. Sebab tengok korang macam rapat je. Rapat sangat."

"Oh eh? Heh, mungkin sebab kitorang satu sekolah lamaaaa. Lagipun, tak semestinya jumpa waktu sekolah je."

"Awak berapa lama dekat al-Amin?"

"11 tahun. Eh bukan, tolak 2 tahun sebab kita ikut mak kita duduk Jeddah kejap."

" *terkejut* Tak boring ke sekolah yang sama?"

"Hee, nak boring apanya? Dah memang suka sekolah tu, seronok je :)"

Jadi, sahabat-sahabat al-Amin sekalian, ana nak berfeeling-feeling kejap ni.

Bersyukurlah kita sebab dapat jumpa kawan-kawan yang bertemu dan berpisah kita adalah kerana Allah :) Kita satu fikrah, dan yang lagi best, sekepala.

Sooooooo, kalau nampak ada kawan-kawan yang tersimpang sikit tu, kita tarik balik. Biar kita semua berjalan di atas jalan yang sama semula. Walaupun kita dah besar, dah di-label-kan sebagai alumni (wuuuu syok!) tapi kita tetap bekas pelajar sekolah al-Amin.

Lastly, belajar elok-elok ya semua. Hari yang dinanti pun bakal menjelang~ Pastikan satu hari nanti kisah kita pulak yang Ust Hasni sebut setiap kali perhimpunan Isnin :)

Wallahua'lam.

Regards,

Amzyami.

60 - Dear You.

2011-01-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

Dear You,

We have known each other for 6 years now.

When I first met you, I was being judgmental. I thought of you as someone who could accompany me throughout the hard times I knew I would be facing. And, the reason why we were so attached to each other was mainly because - we needed each other to survive.

I was still an amateur back then. I thought I knew a lot about islam yet I knew so little! I thought I was the best muslimah there ever was but who knows? A free-haired girl might be more preoccupied in her prayers rather than I was. I didn't know that we had to always improve ourselves. I was so full of myself, and I looked down to you.

But now, after all these years, we have both grown up to be teenagers, anak daras and better muslimah, insyaAllah.

You made me realize that just because I went (still can't grasp the fact that I have finished high school :/ ) to an islamic school, it doesn't mean that I know everything about islam. There are still a lot to discover.

I like it when you ask me about islam. It proves that you are eager to know more. And, sometimes, you make me feel ashamed of myself, when I can't answer some of your questions - even the simplest ones I've learned! It proves how engrossed I am as a muslim and how am I so lack of interest to know more about islam. You made me learn lots of things, in just a night's conversation.

So now I pray to Allah, praying that we can be together in His road, uphold His deen. But remember, to vindicate this religion, we shall not work alone.

United we stand, divided we fall.

A friend that will always love you,

Amzyami.

59 - MH-i? Okay Fiiine!

2011-01-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi, dearest readers!

So in this entry I'd like to give a little of this and that, things that I experienced throughout MH-i.

I arrived a week after, because I had a family vacation that can never be missed, to Beijing. (I tweeted about blogging it but I had no time. Plus, bercerita tentang MH-i adalah jauh lebih menarik!)

Mula-mula memang macam agak malas, sebab baru balik bercuti. Kalau boleh nak extend lagi sehari. Tapi, dah kita yang nak pergi, kena kuat. Nak ubah diri? Jangan berhenti separuh jalan. So, pergi jugak.

Teruja, sangat teruja. Jumpa kawan lama. Jumpa kawan baru. Ahli kumpulan yang sangat havoc, hyperaktif dan mesra. Persahabatan yang sememangnya terbina atas dasar iman. Boleh pulak waktu first week tu baca Sinergi (hak milik Huda), lagi lah terasa ukhuwah dekat sana :)

Jadi, kita go on a few highlights pada saya la dekat sana ya.

Obstacle Course.

Gerak secara bergilir, ikhwah - akhawat. Kumpulan ikhwah belakang kami ni memang ada budak utara yang kepoh. Setiap ejekan tu kita telan.

"Awat hampa kotoq? Tengok baju kami, buleh tau jenama apa sebab kami bersih."

"Cepat la akhawat oi, jalan lambat. Masak lambat. Semua lambat!"

"Tengok dia tu, eee kotoq. Tudung lipat macam apa, selit kertaih sana-sini."

"Buat muka juara, biar je dia cakap sorang-sorang", kata saya.

Alhamdulillah, kami kumpulan akhawat yang pertama tiba. Biey dengan hebatnya telah menyanyikan nasyid Senandung al-Fatihah bila Abang K tanya maksud surah al-Fatihah. Mantap Biey!

Perkampungan Orang Asli.

Seronok. Kami AJK Kebajikan bergabung dengan AJK Kebersihan, untuk cuci tandas. Memang panjat la segala kolah yang ada, nak sapu sawang. Sakit pinggang? Takpe, dah kirim dekat Abah & Umi suruh belikan Salonpas :P

Lepastu, tolong anak-anak warga asli berus gigi, syampu, potong kuku & sabun badan. Seronok bila tengok diorang balik rumah dengan muka bangga seakan-akan cakap "AKU DAH BERSIH!"

Futsal.

KELAKAR. Sebab first time main. Lagi-lagi si Biey ni ha, semangat betul dia nak kalahkan kumpulan lagi satu. Last-last, kami dapat seri, 2-2 :)

Kaifa Ihtadaitu (1).

Ada 3 kali kaifa ihtadaitu (bagaimana saya mendapat hidayah). Slot oleh muallaf tentang bagaimana mereka kenal islam. Mula-mula Hindu to Muslim, Kristian to Muslim then Buddha to Muslim. Jadi MC waktu ni. Epic failed, nama penceramah pun salah, HAHA. Dengan confident-nya kata Brother Assamarqandi, dah hafal dah nama dia, silap tulis atas tangan lagi. Sekali, tukar penceramah last minute laaaa -,- Takpe, kenangan yang indah :)

Pertandingan Memancing.

Sebelum tu ada sembelih ayam, yang belum pernah sembelih boleh cuba. Lepastu kena cabut bulu, bersihkan ayam tu secantiknya. Salam & Nisa tolong uruskan bahagian ayam. Sya, Dayah, Mus, Biey tolong carikan buluh. Solehah & saya cari cacing. Mula-mula sekali tanya pakcik Osman, "Dekat port mana paling banyak cacing ya pakcik?". Then pakcik tunjuk la satu tempat ni. Dah nampak dah cacing-cacing dia, tapi GELIIIIIII nak pegang. Lepastu pakcik Osman hadiahkan (haha :P) benda besi gigi-gigi tu, apa ntah nama dia, suruh korek sendiri. Lama-lama, makin berani pegang cacing. Merasa la jugak geli dia bila tarik cacik sepanjang-panjang tu dari tanah, then badan dia tercabut (eww) tapi seronok. Kalau nak cari cacing, panggil saya ya!

Tapi, sampai sekarang tak berani pegang ulat nak bagi ikan makan. Abah pun komplen, hehe.

Memanah.

Memang first timer lah ni. Gaya macam dah hebat dah, inspired by Mengintai Busur Beradu. (HAHAHAH) First attempt, tersasar jauhhhhh nun di sana. Nak cari arrow balik ingatkan dekat je, rupanya termasuk hutan la juga. Hahaha. Second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth? Semua kena atas-atas je. Tak ada yang bullseye pun. Tinggi sangat kot? (takde kaitan :P)

War Game.

Bersama kumpulan biruuu! Kami sangat semangat okay, siap bawa tin biskut nak letak lilin dalam tu. Lilin yang disediakan tersangatlah pendek, sebab nak suruh kita attack juga orang lain. Saya dengan Fifie cari port kumpulan lain, Mushi dengan Ema cari port kumpulan lain. Akhirnya kami jumpa kumpulan merah. Fifie sorok di belakang, kira nak back up kalau-kalau saya syahid. Lepastu, nampak Kak Dzaty. "ALLAHUAKBAR!" sambil baling mud ball ke arah saya. Alhamdulillah, sempat elak. Lepastu, Kak Dzaty lari. Syifa' pulak datang (take note, mereka kumpulan merah ya). Macam nak serang apa je. Macam dalam cowboy yang ada dua orang nak lawan tapi stand still tu (haha). Lepastu Syifa' baling mud ball, tak kena. Saya baling, Alhamdulillah. Syahid kawan ana sorang ni :) Tiba-tiba, Shafiah lari dengan semangat nak baling mud ball. Saya baling, Alhamdulillah, seorang lagi syahidah. Lepastu kumpulan hitam pun tiba-tiba nak lawan sekali. Saya & Fifie dah terperangkap. Nak attack, tiba-tiba Kak Asma' kata "KUMPULAN BIRU DAH MATI. LILIN TERPADAM". Oh, kecewa.

Ada 4 syuhada' altogether, 2 Kak Asma' bunuh, 2 saya. Alhamdulillah.

Bowling @ Selayang Mall.

Waaaaaa outing ke Mall! Seronok. Kami diberi tugasan untuk edarkan pamphlet yang AJK Kerohanian buat. Sambil bershopping sambil berdakwah. Tapi sebelum tu main bowling dulu. Saya, Dayah, Biey & Kak Dzaty satu lane. Menang, alhamdulillah.

Lepas bowling, dah turun dah escalator, semangat nak pergi makan sedap-sedap. Dah turun dua tingkat, baru rasa kasut lain macam. OH LUPA NAK PULANGKAN KASUT BOWLING. hahahaahhaah. Patah balik, tukar. Muka dah meraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah sangat. Dayah, Solehah dah gelak macam apa dah. Malunyaaaaaa.

Lawatan ke Puncak Niaga.

Aaaaa, oleh kerana pakai kasut Hello Kitty hak milik Siti Fawziyyah aka Bojie, saya tak dibenarkan untuk ikut lawatan yang panjat-panjat. Bukan saya sorang, ramai je jugak. Jadi, kami berkurung dalam surau, solat dan sembang-sembang. Lepas lawatan ni macam agak yakin la (kot) pasal kebersihan air yang kita guna selama ni (?)

Halaqah Memoir Cinta.

AKA malam seni akhawat. Malam persembahan. Kumpulan Amico Mio yang first perform. Kami memang bertemakan SS - Syok Sendiri. Waktu perform lambai-lambai la, macamla ramai sangat fans kan. Yang uniknya persembahan kitorang, personaliti semua orang di-twist. Salam, Nisa & Kak Dzaty jadi kaki buli. Sya & Dayah jadi Ah Long. Biey paling tak boleh bla, jadi nerd. Solehah jadi kepala otai (okay ni personaliti tak di-twist :P) Kak Kayla bacakan sajak hasil nukilan diri dia sendiri. Muslihah jadi mak kepada Biey. Saya? Jadi cikgu O,O cikgu yang sangat tehpape. Tapi yang penting, kami enjoy persembahan sendiri. Dah kata SS, mesti la suka! Hahaha.

Paling suka Wardah Sumaiyah (WS) punya persembahan. Ain dengan Aina comel je tiru tentang bulan. (Aina, kita tengok bulan bintang kita ingat awak :D )

Paling sedih persembahan kumpulan Sumaiyah. Bagusla tu diorang perform last. Semua leleh. Lakonan mantap Nana & Husna.

Paling LAWAK kumpulan Soul. Moda dengan gedik-gilaaaaa dia punya style. Mar yang sangat what-the-hell. Wani yang slumber gila. Haha. Suka suka suka.

Lepastu ada slot menulis surat cinta buat kawan. Majoriti leleh kot. Tulis la surat cinta dekat kawan-kawan. Terima kasih kepada yang tulis surat dekat ana :') Baca setiap hari niiii :)

Lawatan @ UIA.

Apa yang nak dilawat-kan? Haha. Highlight-nya, kami jumpa Zafiraaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ♥ dan Yamiiii ♥ . Shafiah dapat banyaaaaak aiskrim.

Malam Perhimpunan Inspirasi.

Agak boring. Persembahan ikhwah tak se-best persembahan akhawat. Overall, saya bagi 2/5 bintang. Mengantuk juga la kot.

*

Perasan tak? Makin lama makin sikit sinopsis dia. Makin mengantuk.

Tapi, apa-apa pun, MH-i dah banyak ubah cara saya pandang benda. Sekarang, semua perkara dilihat dari sudut yang berbeza.Saya makin optimis. Makin berani. Makin kuat berazam untuk turunkan berat badan.

Kawan-kawan MH-i sekalian, jangan lupa trademark MH-i '10/'11 ni, okay?
Okay, fiiiiiiiiiiiine~

Semoga persahabatan kita kekall, abadan abada. Reunion lagi sebulan kan Abang K kata? Waktu tu, kita tuntut ole-ole dari budak-budak R2K!

Salam Ukhuwah,

Amzyami.

58

2010-12-20T19:06:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi, y'all :)

So after nights of migraine, being hyper, tense, today, at exact 1630, we, economic students marked the end of SPM 2010 (which is something huge, because we technically be with the war 24-7 from the 23rd of November until today, the 20th of December). So, let me give you MY reviews about the exam.

BM. Oh, okay waktu essay :B Tajuk yang dipilih is about seorang ibu boleh besarkan 10 orang anak thingie. Bila balik rumah, Umi check :/ Umi tanya kenapa buat isi ni, kenapa buat isi tu.

ENG. Haa, ingatkan essay dia nak buat lah pasal story. Tapi bila buat story macam tak boleh nak emotional, hehe. So, buatlah home. Essay memang emotional habis lah, haha. Balik rumah, Umi tanya buat essay apa then nak tengok isi. Tapi kalini Umi tak baca isi, sebab emo -,- hehe.

SEJ. A night before memang malas ah nak baca. Sejarah, memang top 3 of my least faved subjects. Haritu pulak lupa bawa slip. Memang bad day habis ahhhh, dah la sejarah :/ Paper 1 dia okay, paper 2 pun okay, semua answerable la, alhamdulillah.

MATHS. Takde komen, okay je la kot :B Cuma tak bawa long ruler (not that kena guna :P)

PSI. Paper 1 was quite tough. Paper 2 okay. Ada kawan tu check, tapi mengada nak depressed sebab salah banyaaaaak (salah 6 lol).

ADD MATHS. Made me smile, easier than expected. Tapi confidence takde la sky high. God's will.

SCIENCE. Haha lepas habis paper 1 konon je jangan bincaaaaaaang, last-last bincang jugak. Tapi ada bagusnya, sebab yang salah dalam paper 1 tu keluar paper 2, yaaaaaay - hehe.

AKAUN. Paper 1 okay. Paper 2 susah saaaaaangat. Takat soalan 1 dengan 6 je yang boleh jawab dengan yakin. Lepastu boleh pulak suruh pindahkan daripada Buku Tunai Runcit ke Lejar. Umi tanya boleh dapat berapa? Sebelum paper kata tak target A. Lepas paper kata CONFIRM tak A. Hahahha.

BAT. Paper 2 dia syok je buat, walaupun dalam essay macam budak tadika. "Kalau kita jaga kebersihan, Allah suka. Kalau Allah suka, boleh masuk syurga. Tapi kalau tak jaga kebersihan, Allah tak suka. Masuk neraka". HAHAHAHAHAH tapi paper 1 jaw-dropping jugak lah. Boleh kot, insyaAllah.

PQS. Tak nak komen banyak, okay je, alhamdulillah.

EKONOMI. Paper 1 dia syioook je buat. Paper 2 dia okay lah, cukup masa :B Cuma soalan 6 dia tu je lah yang ugh ugh ughhh sikit. Perintah dekat bank tu, out of three ingat satu je, hehe. PERINTAH SEDIA ADA. Lagi dua tu bantai :S

Inilah sedikit sebanyak tentang pengalaman SPM saya :B

Regards,

Amzyami.

57

2010-12-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

Salam & HI :)

Kak and Tee are having their end-of-term break. Tee stays at home 24-7. She teaches my sisters Arabic, Tajweed and Agama subjects lah. Kak has to attend this Oracle thingie to get the Oracle cert, which is good for her (?) as Mak Yang said, because having an Oracle cert will make everyone wants you to work with them (?). IDK, I'm not a computer programmer, why should I know -,-

Tee learns how to cook everything. And I mean, EVERYTHING. She asked for recipes from New Zealand even! Hahaha.

Ah, I want to go to New Zealand. Seriously.

NAK PERGI NEW ZEALAAAAAAND.

So then Mak Cik, awak kena la belajar untuk dapat A+++ Economy. And of course BAT dengan PQS.

I have so many to-do things to be done in my list. I want to do the 30-days-challenge! AAAAAAAAAAH.

Okay Bo warned me.

"Amirah, awak kata nak guna sekejap je."

"Okay bye Bo."

Okay bye peeps.

Regards,

Amzyami.

56

2010-11-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

AND,

To my beloved friends, who are going to enter the war zone this Tuesday!

Loves,

Amzyami.

55

2010-11-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi, dearest readers!

Today's entry is about things that I do NOT like. I don't hate them, because hate is a very strong word (haha).

Saya tak suka orang yang hipokrit.

Tapi memang saya pernah dengar satu quote ni, dan quote ni sangat betul ; Everyone is a hypocrite. Tak kira la, kita mungkin jadi hipokrit dekat orang lain ataupun diri kita sendiri. Saya tak suka, tak bermakna saya benci. Saya pun hipokrit jugak, sebab tu la takkan nak benci diri sendiri kot (haha okay, tak lawak.)

Saya tak suka orang yang suka show-off.

Kalau awak nak kata yang awak kaya, tolong lah bear in mind that yang berduit, yang poket berisi, wallet penuh tu, bukannya awak. Ayah & Mak awak. Lagipun, tak kemananya harta dunia ni. Boleh bawak masuk kubur ke? Tepuk dada, tanya diri :)

Saya tak suka LIPAS.

Kalau cicak boleh tahan lagi okay. Ni tak suka more to geli la. Awak tak geli ke, tengok dia jalan laju macam tu? Then kalau tengah-tengah malam dia crawl atas awak. Ew. Move on.

Saya tak suka passion saya terhadap makanan.

Kalau dalam family makan one humongous kebab macam waktu dekat Vienna dulu, semua tak habis except saya. Siap boleh habiskan orang punya lagi -,- Kata nak turun berat, apa cer?

54

2010-11-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi, dearest Earthlings!

Okay at first I thought of writing sentimental stuff then I decided that they are too personal to be shared, so yeah. Here I am, rambling to whoever-that-reads-this or perhaps, to myself because nobody reads this bloody boring blog anyway.

See, dia punya mukaddimah pun dah panjang.

Okay, proper blogging now.

As we get older, of course people around us trust and expect us to be more mature and even more responsible to take care of our personal belongings. May I remind you that, trust is a HUGE word. Trust needs years to earn but just a mere second to break. Once the trust is broken, it will be even harder to re-earn the trust you have gained.

I trusted you. I told you everything a friend could have possibly told but of course, I faced an utter betrayal by a so-called best friends or as how kids nowadays say it, BFFs. Yeah yeah I sound like a total loner and thus I shall now move on. Why bother being upset after getting back stabbed by your best friend?

Okay the other main topic here is about being more mature. Everyone in school knows that MPT5 is on this Friday! ( I don't know whether I should be excited or worried to death for the upcoming SPM.) We were told to give them our ambitions and however, most of my friends are not yet sure about what they want to be. Including me, I suppose. I mean, I know which course I want to focus on - Mass Communication but then again, Economics would be as much interesting and Business would be nice as well. Ah, if I pursue on MassComm then I can become a journalist / columnist, if Allah allows me to :) Or a teacher.

I want to be a kindergarten's teacher lah. Can hardly be all tensed up.

Hm. Back to the first serious-paragraph (?), Abah keeps on telling us that he doesn't not want to break his trust towards us. Neither do we, Abah & Umi. We will try to be good and protect our family's name. Things like one day lots of men come knocking at our door and tell both of you about how disgraceful we have been won't happen. I assure you. We will try to not let you both down, after everything you've done for us, all the money you've spent on us.

So after lots of off-subjects here every now and then, I hope you had a good time reading my rants.

Regards,

Amzyami.

53

2010-10-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi.

Dear hati,

Saya harap sangat awak boleh jadi kuat. Jangan putus asa sekarang. Kalau betul yang awak nak buktikan semua tu, please do.

Hati,

Saya dah hidup dengan awak lama dah. 17 tahun. Awak dah lalui segalanya dengan saya & vice versa. Kadang-kadang tak semuanya berjalan dengan lancar, kan?

Hati, kalau boleh saya nak pergi dekat empty space. Jerit sekuat hati. Kalau tak boleh, jerit dekat tingkat 20 Seri Maya pun okay la.

Saya sayang awak hati, saya harap awak boleh go through this dengan saya once again.

Yang sakit hatinya,

Amzyami.

52

2010-10-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi.

Okay so, this is an awkward moment for me.

Kenapa oh kenapaaaa did I post the previous entry? Kalau nak delete nanti title entri semua lari, hehe. Okay, lemme distract all of you with some photos.

Bo bersama kakak kesayangan dia yang matang :B

Abah bersama anak bongsu paling manja yang tak matang :P

Bersama Anisah yang konon-konon-matang-lah-juga.

Regards,

Amzyami.

51

2010-10-24T21:52:00.000+08:00

Dear You,

I think I like you. A lot.

50

2010-10-19T21:39:00.001+08:00

Salam & Hi, to you.

So the results are out. Mine are terribly awful, as usual. Okay. Move on. the more I talk about the results, the more I want to commit suicide. I don't want to do that.

Okay.

Since SPM is in a few days' time, I always get flashbacks on when my sisters were studying and I wonder why I can't do the same.

I have to do the things that they did, only more. I expect myself to break the chains.

Amirah, awak dah letakkan benchmark yang tinggi so awak kena cuba atasi ye. Baiklah!

Oh btw I told Ust Hasni about how scared we were before trial and he was like, "Alah, trial je. Kamu nak takut apa?". So, yeah. If you didn't perform well on your trial, tell your parents that the principal said they weren't important. Heh heh.

Regards,

Amzyami :)

49

2010-10-12T12:31:00.000+08:00

Salam & Hi, earthlings!

Remember when they say,

When life gives you lemon, make lemonade! (?),

Well, we need enough sugar to make one too, don't we?

Lemons alone aren't enough to make a good lemonade.

48

2010-10-06T23:11:00.001+08:00

(Entri ini dipenuhi dengan unsur-unsur emosi)

Dear You,

I appreciate to have you as a friend of mine, really and truly. There are times when we share thoughts, smiles, laughter and cries. Of course, everything has their own pros and cons and in our case, I can't be sure which weigh more.

All I crave for is to be valued.

Okay that sounded desperate. But I'm serious.

A little appreciation would be fine, too. Whenever I put my everything into something, and you act like its a complete nothing, THAT makes me feel like a total moron. Not that I object, I know I look like one quite frequently -,- Anyway. When everyone was filled with enthusiasm to do something together, you just HAVE to back off, don't you? But when things are giving more benefits to you, you seem too eager to ask everyone to do it with you and if we don't you would start sulking.

Oh, PLEASE. Put a sock in it.

Don't you think it seems quite selfish? I looked up to you. I'm not sure whether I still do. I know, not everyone is perfect, neither do I. BUT, you're the one who keep on saying to value other people's feelings but what about you?

Hm. IDK. Don't care, even. I'm tired of being worried about these kinds of stuff. It burdens me, and has no effect on you, let alone other people. So, I'll just let it go.

47

2010-10-05T23:43:00.001+08:00

Dear You,

I found out who you are! Haha, thank you anyway. Even though you tried to hide your identity - nak bagi secara anonymous lah konon but I eventually caught you!

Thank you, for the strap!

(This entry is a continuity of my previous Dear You.)

46

2010-10-02T17:08:00.002+08:00

Entri kali ini mungkin kedengaran vain tapi,

Saya SUKA apa yang saya dah buat dekat blog ni.

Tahniah, Siti Amirah!

45

2010-10-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

Dear You,

Terima kasih sebab bagi phone strap tu. Awak tahu eh yang saya memang tengah search for phone straps :B Lepas dapat terus eksaited tahu taaaak then terus letak dekat fon.

Sempat pulak tu saya show off dekat adik-adik (sebab kakak-kakak takde dekat rumah -,-) dapat hadiah dari kawan. Diorang pun tak bagi saya hadiah okay. Jadi waktu tu eksaited memang terlebih.

Dah lah kaler purple. Ada teddy bear.

Comel tahu?

Mula-mula saya ingat sebab awak memang tahu kaler kegemaran saya. Saya dah siap hantar mesej dekat Z sebab saya ingatkan Z tu awak. Rupa-rupanya.. bukan.

Sampai sekarang saya taktahu awak siapa T,T

44 - A Year Older

2010-09-13T17:30:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Yesterday was my seventeenth birthday. Alhamdulillah.

I'm a year older, and am a step closer to death. May my ibadahs increase linearly as my age. (Ataupun kalau nak ikut bahasa Kakak, pebende ntah, tapi bahasa melayu punya.)

We celebrated my birthday a day early, because we spent September 12th in the car. A not-so-long-yet-tiring journey all the way from Teluk Intan - Bangi - KL.

Ramai orang text cakap yang mesti tengah pulun studi untul trial next week (OH NEXT WEEK JE). Terasa jugak masam-manis dia, sebab kalau pulun pun mesti tak se-hebat 'mereka'.

Tapi kan Amirah, awak jangan la ada low self-esteem. Kena confident jugak. Tapi tak boleh kalau nak overconfident jugak. Rileks rileks sudah.

Apa lagi? Jom mula puasa 6! :)

Pictures are limited. Tengok profile Anisah la, ada banyak.

Regards,

Amzyami.

43 - Farewell

2010-09-09T09:25:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Ramadhan will be leaving us in less than 12 hours time. Hope everyone spent their time wisely, regardless whether during day or night.

Girls, don't forget to ganti your puasa okay. The sooner the better. Takde lah Rejab tahun depan semua sibuk nak risau tak habis ganti lagi.

I apologize I didn't go to the Iktikaf held by G4Squared, I had an emotional breakdown. I have lots of those these days. I wonder why.

I give you a hint ; everything started after Iktikaf Perdana.

Let us all fill our not-so-long holidays with SBP Trial papers. And yeah, Ust Ayub's 3 sets of Arabic questions. I'm enjoying all these, for now.

So Eid is tomorrow. I still haven't feel the excitement yet. Anisah kata, Ramadhan tahun ni kitorang semua paling matang.

Sebab?

Tak main pop-pop langsung. Pergi bazaar pun kalau betul-betul perlu je. Unlike last year, ugh -.-

I wonder how Nazirah's coping. I was too late to wish her good luck before her departure. But I know she will do just fine. She's brave as a lioness.

Today has been harsh. I walked around my neighbourhood for like 15 minutes to "find peace". And I found it, alhamdulillah.

We're going to go offffffff to Teluk Intan around 1100 hrs. Mak Long, Mak Yang and Cik Yah are there. Oh and, Luqman got accepted to al-Amin Bangi and Sumaiyah still didn't get her result to be in al-Amin Gombak next year. Primary one.

Regards,

Amzyami.

42 - An Entry For You :)

2010-09-03T21:19:00.001+08:00

Salam.

I'm dedicating this entry to a very special nearly fifteen-year-old friend of mine, Nazirah Azyan Nazari :)

(Nak letak gambar tapi malas. Bosan la blog ni, tak pernah nak ada gambar real human being.)

First of all, I met her a few years back when I was er, fourteen. It was the first day of my Year 8 and her first day of her Year 7 (Class of '08). Since Najwa and I were familiar with how the school worked at first, we - exemplary seniors (hehe) - told her a few bits of this and that. We had break times together. Spent our first break by buying juice and second break was pasta / cookie time. Haha, t'was fun, I'm telling you.

Then, JP had this Fun Day. It was a party for the end of first term. So, Najwa and I went to Nazirah's and we talked, cam-whore-d, babysat my two sisters - they were swimming in Nazirah's compound's pool. We even took photos with a Santa! :P I still have this picture I like most, of three of us :)

Anyway, I'll just go straight to the point, okay. I'm over with the introduction.

Nazirah,

I know you're now in an ENORMOUS dilemma. Shrewsbury (?) is miles apart from your relatives and hometown. Plus, you're going to stay there alone. For a few months until your brother pursues his study there. (I think).

What I want you to know is that number one, I'M PROUD OF YOU :) You've changed SO MUCH since the last time we met - which was the day I went to school fully covered with all the purdah and stuff. Of course, as time goes by, everyone gets more mature and learns more about life. But, you've learnt a lot.

You have the guts I'm sure I'm lack of. I went to a boarding school in Jeram and I left the school because I was homesick :S And that was Jeram, an hour ride from home. Ni, England? Dudette, you sure have my respect :)

All these worries you're having are not permanent. They will be gone by the wind in just a few days. A good friend like you won't be having trouble making friends with others, I assume, right? Ignore what people say about you - you may impress your own self on how you can manage your life after that. Others opinions may lighten or darken your day so grab the pros and throw the cons away. Your studies will be fine - you're a great student, aren't you?

On top of all those, the ultimate thing you can never be far from is HIM. Bring a Quran with you and ensure you read it everyday. You'll be surprised on the peace you'll feel if you do so. Sometimes, other country can change you to be a much better person. Because when you're being apart with your family, you'll realize that He is always with you, no matter what.

So, be strong ya, Nazirah? I will always pray for you :)

I hope you read the book I just recommended you through Yahoo. Trust me, you will realize a lot of things.

Aaaand, I look forward for your visits to New Zealand soon :P and the place where Najwa's going to go to.

Lastlyyyyyyyyy, I looooove you!

Quote of The Day ;

"You have brain in your head, you have feet in your shoes ;

You can steer yourself, any direction you choose."

- Dr. Seuss.

Regards,

Amzyami.

41

2010-08-31T16:11:00.001+08:00

Salam.

Re-changed my URL. Purposely, because I've been wanting to use amzyami for such a long time but I couldn't, due to a few difficulties.

Come to think of this, I can't remember how I got the name Amzyami.

All I know is that Fati called me Amzy. Oh, maybe Ami is just a part of my name and I kind of like it, so yeah. Have you heard of Ami Yumi Show? Ha, comel kan?

Quote of The Day;

"You will never be able to escape from your heart. So it's better to listen to what it has to say."

- Paulo Coelho.

Regards,

Amzyami.

40

2010-08-28T08:17:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Belakangan ini (haha), kalau guru yang masuk kelas tu tak suruh buat banyak kerja, kami akan bersembang pasal hati dan perasaan (?) . Serius, tak tipu, haha.

Bukanla kitorang yang ber-angau sana sini. Tapi dengar cerita dari dia, dia dan dia. Cerita pasal itu ini. Ada yang minta khidmat nasihat. Tapi apa lah sangat yang kitorang boleh tolong, kami tak berpengalaman pun :B Tapi tot tet tot tet, dapatla tolong sikit sikit.

Lagipun, khidmat nasihat daripada kami yang berkepala senget dan otak tiga suku ni bukannya 100% accurate. Kalau 43.93425% tu ada kemungkinan lagi kot. Heh.

Anyway. Lepas berkhidmat, banyak juga info yang kami dapat.

Antaranya tentang MEREKA. Ya, kalian berdua. So apa lagi, saya pun mulakan kerja stalk-mengstalk, nak terkeluar jugak la muntah hijau lepas dapat baca sendiri perkara sebenar. Ugh. Tak nak cakap banyak.

Oh untuk anda ye, wanita solehah muslimah jamilah mujtahidah semua,

tolong la, I repeat, TOLONGLA jangan jadi murah sangat.

Saya pernah baca 1 artikel ni, lelaki yang tulis tau (hihiks),

Kalau the girl tu kahwin nanti, apa je yang dia ada untuk husband dia?

Sayang? Dah bagi kat boyfriend.

Keluar berdua? Dah bagi kat kawan study group.
Suara bangun tidur? Dah bagi kat abang angkat.

Body? Dah tayang dekat ramai dah, baju kan fit fit segala.

Habistu husband awak dapat apa cik kak oii.

Okay tetiba rasa entri ni macam sangat untuk orang besar.

Tapi adulthood akan bermula dari teenage life jugak kan.

Kalau sekarang dah ngeng, nanti macam mana?

Regards,

Amzyami

39

2010-08-25T20:59:00.001+08:00

Salam.

Need I remind you that this is an utterly emotional entry posted by an utterly emotional person. Me.

I've lost my mood, recently. I could do nothing to make me smile back again. Nobody could.

I'm sick of having my heart broken by you people.

"You have to treat others as how you want to be treated". Ever heard of that one? Of course. BUTTTTT, why oh why, even when I apply this quote to my daily routine, I don't get the result as promised. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of EVERYTHING.

For some weird reason, rasa macam nak pindah sekolah.

If I could - believe me, I seriously would.

I can't believe that I just realized how you guys are taking me for granted. You guys are using me. Please, just because I look all so calmy-camly and cheery-cheery, it doesn't mean that I am feeling-less.

I do have feelings, and my feelings are unlimited. I can love you today and hate you instantly tomorrow. Plus, I'm a woman (I don't like to refer myself as a teenager O_O) and women's feelings are hard to explain.

So, dearest friends, if you see me all by myself, please, don't talk to me.

I need some privacy in these few days. Or perhaps, until after Eid.

I'm not going to be like this for good.
I just need an own corner, to ease myself. To sort myself out.
Please, respect my decision.

When I said I have some unstable-emotion-disorder (?),
You guys laughed at me and said that it was impossible.
Look at me now. Does it look impossible to you?
DOES IT?!

Maybe this is one of the obstacles He wants me to go through.

7asbiyallahu wa ni3mal wakeel. Allah is my availer and protector and the best of aids.

Regards,

Amzyami.

38

2010-08-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Family is one thing nobody can ever replace.
Love them is a must.

Eventhough ;
They may arrive an hour late to pick you up from school.
They may piss you every now and then.
They cause an obvious scar on your eyelid.
They read your personal stuff.

But remember that ;
We go through ups and downs as one.
We will never back-stab each other.

And also, may it be for the better or for the worse,
They are still your family no matter what. For eternity.

Abah, Ummi, Kak, Tee, Nys, Bo,
Amirah sayang kaliaaan :)
Walaupun ye lah, mood ni selalunya tak menentu ye dak.
Dah nama pun perempuan.
Tapi tu lah, kita sekarang dah tak marah over-over macam dulu :B
Sekarang ni alhamdulillah dah boleh kawal temper :)

37

2010-08-15T00:46:00.001+08:00

Salam.

Awak tahu tak, saya sayang awak. Dalam masa 17 tahun saya hidup, tak pernah kawan saya cakap straightforward dekat saya, "Ana doakan anti jadi salah seorang bidadari di syurga. Semoga Allah pertemukan kita di Jannah".

Saya sangat terkesan dengan kata-kata awak.

Miya miya syukran alaiki :)

Awak lah orang yang akan menghulurkan tangan tatkala saya jatuh tersungkur.
Awak lah orang yang akan menyalakan semula baraan api untuk teruskan perjuangan.
Awak lah orang yang akan mewarnai hari-hari saya yang acap kali pudar warnanya.

Saya sayang semua kawan-kawan saya di al-Amin.
Tanpa mereka, saya tak akan jadi siapa saya hari ini.
Memang betul, perjalanan saya masih jauh.

Tanpa antunna, siapalah ana :')

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2010-08-14T14:11:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Semalam ada kawan bagitahu,

Susah nak buang benda yang dah sangat sebati dengan kita.
Yang dah jadi darah daging kita sendiri.
Kepedihan, keperitan dan kepayahan nak buang benda tu hanya Allah yang tahu.

Betul. Saya pernah ada dalam situasi yang sama.
Alhamdulillah, ALLAH permudahkan jalan saya untuk memberitahunyaa perkara yang sebenar.
Dengan cara yang berhikmah.

PS ; How's your Ramadhan going? :)

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2010-08-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Ramadhan Kareem to each and every one of you. May this holy month brings you closer to him and may you have the strength to stay consistent for another whole year, inshaAllah.

First of all, let me share something with you.

Three years ago, I spent my Ramadhan-nights by playing badminton and cards with my neighbours. After praying tarawih, of course. We spent the night from 2230 to 0430. Then I went back home and ate Sahur and prayed Subuh and went asleep until Zuhur. Afterwards I spent the rest of the day chatting with friends online.

See how wasted my Ramadhan was?

So now, since I'm given the chance to meet Ramadhan again, why should I waste it? I was dumb enough to let it go just like that.

Since we are given the second chance, lets try to not let it go.

It is hard to get a third chance.

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2010-08-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

Peace be upon you dear reader(s) :)

Belakangan ini (haha), hati dan naluri sering diajak untuk membaca artikel-artikel di satu laman web islamik yang memang tip-top. 5 bintang wa cakap sama lu.

Banyak artikel yang memang menyentuh hati dan perasaan. Banyak jugak artikel yang memang terkena batang hidung sendiri. Ada jugak benda baru yang saya belajar. iLuvislam, memang website yang semua orang tahu :) Saya rajin jugak beli tabloid dia every fortnight, tapi sayang lah jugak, sebab lepas baca, tabloid tu mesti dicampak rata-rata. Kalau tak pun, jadi alas untuk potong rambut relatives. Hm, so lepas tu saya stop beli. Baca online pun dah cukup, insyaAllah :)

Setiap malam, saya mesti baca at least 1 artikel, baru tidur. Kalau tak baca pun entah la, mula lah tu buat benda tak berfaedah.

Saya akui, walaupun percubaan lagi sebulan, novel memang tak pernah lekang dari tangan. Kalau dah habis, mesti baca balik novel lama-lama, refresh balik. Sayang kan, kenapa tak boleh buat macam tu dekat buku Add Maths? Accounts? Econs? Hm, tu lah. Buku yang khatam time f2 (The-friggin Twilight Saga) pun ingat sampai sekarang. Apa middle name anak Bella? Bila birthday Bella? Hm, semua tu ingat lagi. Macam mana nak kira TPM? Hah, padahal benda tu baru belajar dalam kelas few weeks back. Integration, Perdagangan Antarabangsa.

Sedarlah diri kak oi, SPM bukannya makin jauh.

Anyway, alhamdulillah, saya bersyukur. Kalau dulu, malam-malam mesti giat main Facebook. Stalk sana, stalk sini. Ultimate stalker tahu (brag lah pulak T,T). Sekarang, tak dah. Baca benda yang insyaAllah lagi berfaedah dan mendatangkan 1001 manfaat :)

So now, cuba untuk istiqamah ye kak !
:D

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2010-08-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

Saya sangat teruja nak tunggu Ramadhan (!)

Moga Ramadhan tahun ini lebih baik daripada yang sebelumnya :)

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2010-08-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Found this on a website.

"Sebesar-besar dosa adalah dosa yang dilakukan ketika kita rasa berdosa melakukannya."

Semoga quote ni boleh jadi ibrah for you and for me :)

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2010-08-01T15:32:00.000+08:00

Dengan nama Allah, Assalamualaikum :)

Ada satu kisah yang telah menyentuh naluri wanita saya :')(hhaha) dan saya nak share dengan semua :)

Semalam, kami pergi rumah Tok Chu dekat Kelana Jaya. Sebelum pergi rumah Tok Chu, kami tunggu Chag dekat TH Kelana Jaya.

Dekat TH tu lah kitorang pernah habiskan masa cuti sekolah akhir tahun. Dari darjah 3 sampai darjah 6. Kalau cuti akhir tahun mesti duduk Kompleks. Sungguh, banyak sangat kenangan.

Waktu musim haji, kitorang dapat tengok family yang menangis. Menangis sebab itu mungkin pertemuan mereka yang terakhir kali. Menangis sebab mungkin si anak nak si mak/ayah maafkan diorang sebelum berangkat pergi. Sangat touche.

Waktu musim haji, kitorang mesti beli dadih dekat kedai depan tu. Setiap hari pergi office Umi minta duit then pergi kedai. Sedap woo. Setiap hari mesti mintak "Kak, nak dadih coklat 2, susu 2, strawberry satu". Setiap hari mesti pergi dekat kedai Knorr tu rasa soup free (hehe). Seronok. Kalau la ada time machine..

Alhamdulillah, Umi kata kami sangat bertuah. Kenapa?

Dekat Kompleks, kitorang dapat tengok orang berlepas untuk pergi haji. Walaupun time tu tak pernah terdetik pun yang kitorang akan jadi hajah-hajah muda.

Dekat Jeddah, kitorang dapat sambut para jemaah yang datang dari Malaysia. Duduk satu hotel dengan diorang. Seronok, kan? Alhamdulillah. Peluang yang bukan semua orang boleh rasakan.

Sebenarnya nak tulis pasal lain :S Next entry yeh, hehe.

Salam :)

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2010-07-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

I don't know whether you still read my blog or not.

But I just want to say one thing - YES.

YES, I'm talking about us. I love you, always have and always will. It will be such a waste if this friendship we have ends just like that. Then I won't meet another friend who is as special as you are.

I'm sorry, I'm such a coward I can't even say these words face-to-face. I can express myself better through writing, I think so lah.

But deep inside, I know you feel the same. We have wasted ample time.

Let us work together to fix everything.

Would you give me a second chance?

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2010-07-24T11:17:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

The only thing I ask of You is to

Hold their hands when I'm not around.

Guide them to the very right path.

Ensure that they are safe and unharmed.

Let us reunite in Your jannah soon, Inshallah.

I love them, with all my heart.

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2010-07-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

Teamwork is not elaborating what one has worked hard for.

Even Troy said that "We're all in this together."

*I'm having a crush on Sterling Knight :)

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2010-07-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

I ain't gonna post my daily routines, mana tahu ada stalker O_O (perasan kejap).

Anyway, congrats to those who are accepted to go to PLKN. I will (Inshallah) be teaching the kd's kids while you guys are enjoying the heat of the sun.

I want to talk about MASBA lah sebenarnya.

It was a total success! :)

All the rehearsals were definitely worth it :DD

PANTOMIN.

Even though Yusuf was like a girl-boy (hopefully he didn't look like an 'awww'.). It was hard, since I had no experience at all in being a boy. I even borrowed my dad's baju melayu and jubah putih and kain pelikat and kopiah and kemeja. HAHAHA sorry Abah. Anyways, I liked it though I hadn't had the guts to re-watch how I acted like - Atiqah rakam sikit-sikit. Congrats to each and every one of the actresses - Dii, Syi, Faqihah, Wardah, Wani, Alia, Kinah, Zulaikha, Nadia dan semua yang F5 dulu lah senang. Haha.

CHORAL SPEAKINGGGGGG!

First of all, I apologize to Teacher Shida because I didn't go to any practices on the very final week. I felt guilty, seriously. However, on The Day, it turned out great! Alhamdulillah :) I loved every part of it, especially THE CHEEEEEEEESE CAKEEEE! Haha, sorry dekat AJKs sebab kami tak kutip sampah balik. Although we received a disappointing news on April (about joining the daerah punya CS) but we still went through everything together :) Zulaikha, Yami, Kinah, Aimi, Nafisah, Tira, Zafirah, WE ROCKED!

Thats all about MASBA, obrigada :)

PUI pulak. (Todays post is kinda long, kan? -___-)

I'm enjoying every moments of it. The final moments with friends in school - something that I really value :)

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2010-07-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I feel like we are not friends anymore.

But deep inside, I know we are.
Ego has taken over both you and I.

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2010-07-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

If there are 5 girls hanging out with a boy,

I consider that boy is shameless.

Unless of course, they are siblings.

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2010-07-09T21:42:00.001+08:00

If you guys haven't yet noticed,

my favourite colour is purple :)

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2010-07-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

Woot posto bahasa malaya pula harini ya.

Kawan awak melatah tak? Dalam beratus-ratus kawan yang awak ada, mesti ada yang melatah kan? Paling kurang pun seorang lah. Dia melatah macam mana?

A : Oh mak kau!

B : #&^!*#&@ man!

C : Opocot!

D : Allah Allah!

E : Eahhhh! (jerit kecil dengan suara comel, yang ni kawan perempuan je la ye. Lelaki agak mustahil, gahaghag.)

F : (taktahu nak reka macam mana lagi bunyi orang melatah)

Okay, kalau kawan awak dalam kategori B, awak patut bagi nasihat dekat dia. Tak elok tau! Kalau nak melatah, melatah elok-elok, macam D tu. Kan solehah? (HAHA).

Next case,

Kawan awak berjalan seret kasut ke, hentak kasut ke, soundless? Haaa, tolonglah, saya pantang dengan orang yang seret kasut dia. Kalau awak jalan diam-diam, tiba-tiba ada orang berjalan belakang awak & dia seret kasut dia, AWAK RASA SELAMAT TAK? Kalau ya, hmph. Kalau tak, SAMALAH KITA :D ahahaha. Orang yang seret kasut ni saya kategorikan sebagai orang yang malas nak angkat kaki sendiri. Eh helo, berat sangat ke kaki awak tu? Angkat sekejap je, lepastu angkat la lagi sebelah. Rajin sikit boleh tak?

Ketiga,

Tak de pape dah. Hehe.

Keempat,

KORANG DAH BACA DAH BUKU WO AI NI ALLAH? BACA LAH, SERONOK! Walaupun dia macam ke-Indonesia-an sikit, sebab penulis dia Indonesian, tapi okay lah. Sebab kita dapat sedar kalau muallaf yang baru pun dah hargai islam sedalam tu, kita macam mana? Kita yang lahir dalam keluarga islam ni. Bersyukur tak? Dapat hidayah dari kecil, bersyukur tak? Diberi peluang untuk beribadah sampai harini, bersyukur tak?

Buku lagi satu yang nak di-recommend, um ummm Three Cups of Tea? Tapi buku tu dah lama =/ but still, dia sangat INSPIRING okay. Haha.

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2010-07-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

Saya perlu turun 2kg untuk mencapai tahap berat impian.
Anisah is a few cm shorter than me yet she is 40-something.
Dayuuuuuuuuuuuuum.
So I'm here to tell all of you,
I, Siti Amirah, am 161cm tall and I weigh 52 kg.

Okay, maybe my dream weight isn't that light.
BUT THATS ALL I CAN AFFORD. hahahahahahhaha
saya taknak nampak macam awak - tiang lampu =/

21

2010-07-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

Dear Blog,

I'm utterly gullible (a new vocab for me, thanks to Sarah :P). My 11-yr-old sister tricked me about Weirdo's death. HOW THE HECK WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?

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2010-07-03T11:58:00.000+08:00

I swear to God this page is fugley.

19

2010-07-03T11:49:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you WHY most of the doctors these days need to work on their communication skill.

It happened last Tuesday, when the doctor asked me what was wrong.

"Kebelakangan ni asyik migraine pening migraine pening. Badan pun lemah-lemah gitu"

"Habistu? Apa masalah dia?"

"Oh um, nak tahu lah apa punca dia and stuff"

(sebab time kakak pergi sebelum ni doktor tu kata she had * disorder so I freaked out of course)

"Oh, itu salah kamu la. Kamu kena jaga diri sendiri. Ni dah sakit, doktor jugak yang kena cure"

That was one, and here is another one.

"Saya tak suka makan panadol, sebab nanti kita akan rely dekat benda tu walaupun sakit sikit-sikit je. Lagipun tak nak la depend on panadols je"

"Kamu ingat panadol tu untuk apa? Memang kena makan la. Kamu ni kuat sangat ke untuk biarkan je ubat-ubat tu?"

Then, after I got out of her freaking room, I cursed her. Seriously. I wanted to be cured yet I got hurt some MORE. There were tears, of course. Hmph.

I won't see you again, Doc.

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2010-06-29T19:31:00.000+08:00

O Allah, please give me strength to face every day with ease and calmness.

Dear family, friends and readers,

I don't know why my heart is very weak these days. The tears that used to be too expensive is now free. Even when someone ask me about something and accidentally say something that offends me, I blow out. I can't. Perhaps I need to remind myself to carry tissue papers with me 24-7.

The other thing is, my health is getting worse. A simple carelessness can bring out a total jeopardy. I can lose my consciousness anytime, anywhere. I'm weak. I'm sick.

May Allah bless you, whoever you may be. Bear in mind that we only live once. Why not make the best out of it?

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2010-06-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today has been hectic. No, I'm not making excuses. I just hope that these kind of days would end soon for me - and it will, only if I'm strong enough :S And I can't be strong, you know. Physically yeah sure I can but definitely not mentally. Anyway, this is something I found in Tumblr that I think is best to share with everyone :)

It is so cute, yet has lots of moral values.

Don't just read the story, feel it. Grasp it.

Haha okay, I sound like a perv.

Regards,

Amzyami.

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2010-06-17T01:18:00.000+08:00

As the saying goes "don't judge a book by its cover", I strongly say that I do sometimes judge someone by the way they look. But as time goes by and as I get to know them better, yeah, my assumptions were definitely wrong. See - you can never never never I repeat, NEVER judge someone before you know them. Ever. You may think you know me well enough while you actually do NOT know a single thing about me. I can hide my emotions easily. I can fake up my attitude, just like stealing candies from babies. I can be two people at a time. So, yeah. Can I make it up to you? So that you can know me better?

And when I say you, I actually mean a specific person. You, yes. Only you.

I like to watch the way left-handed(s) write. It is somehow amusing. I have tried to be ambidextrous - I really did try - but my left-hand's writings are terrifying! Seriously Amirah, if your right-hand's writing pun tak pass ada hati nak write by using your left hand. But I will try to be ambidextrous. Lefties, you have my respect!
Since you know I'm right-handed, I also think you should know that I wear my watch on my right wrist. I know, I know, most people don't do that. Rimas la, tak selesa la. I am used to it, though. So, yeah. Plus, my watch it nearly 4 years old (the oldest watch so far) and I will keep this watch until my last breath, inshaAllah.
I don't show my emotions do various people. Yeah - some may consider me as an open book, because people can tell when I'm sad and stuff. But I do hide my emotions okay, peeps? Those whom I consider as strangers shouldn't know how I feel. My family do know how I feel - I think. It's hard to explain, but yeah. My emotions are hidden.
You may say that I'm lack of confidence. Yes, I agree with you. I'm not confident. Ish Amirah, macam mana nak pursue in that very course if you have no confidence? My self-esteem should be higher. I will try my best inshaAllah :) I will step up, little by little, until the little steps become a long, meaningful journey of mine :D
Boys who can actually play an instrument can hold my interest - tapi serious eh, ni bukan suka yang OH SUKA GILA OBSES ♥ tu, just macam admire la kot? Since they have this passion towards music. I get this from my late-grandfather who was a musician yet the best teacher in Kedah (rewarded by the ministry in 2004) and now, my 14-year-old cousin who is a hardcore O_O Haha. Anyways, I want to learn how to play pianos, but yeah - my parents don't approve musical instruments. I do know how to play recorders though - AHAHAH.
Whenever I feel down, I express them in writings. Tapi hasil penulisan bukanlah terbaik mana, nampak sangat amateur. But I do know that there's always a room for improvement :)
Currently the only thing that I can't get it out of my head is the "thing" that the doctor has told Kakak last week. I'M FREAKING HORRIFIED!

Regards,

Amzyami.

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2010-06-15T16:21:00.000+08:00

Being healthy, before you get sick.

Being young, before you get old.

Having time, before you get busy.

Being rich, before you get poor.

Being alive, before you die.

5 things that humans often forget. Do you?

Health, Free time.

2 biggest nikmats that Allah gives us yet we rarely being grateful. We waste our health and free time. What about you?

Allah has said in the Holy Quran,

In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

By (the Token of) Time (through the ages),
Verily Man is in loss,
Except such as have Faith, and do righteous deeds,
and (join together) in the mutual teaching of Truth,
and of Patience and Constancy.
-translation by Abdullah Yusuf Ali

Have a very pleasant final-week of holiday :)

Regards,

Amzyami.

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2010-06-14T00:08:00.000+08:00

You know whats funny?

I know that you know that I know your entry is about me.

You know that I know that you know my entry is about you.

And the entries aren't about fun, happy, cheerful stuff. It is somewhat hatred? No, hatred isn't the word. It should be something more to uh.. ignorance? Moving on? Ah, IDK, I don't know that many vocabs anyway. You can tell by realizing that I repeat the same words many times. Anyways. We both post about moving on and stuff yet we do not apply our entries in daily basis.

When we meet, we still greet each other.

But, in the cyber world, its like World War III.

Jom puasa hari Isnin :) (!)

1 Rejab kan :D

Regards,

Amzyami.

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2010-06-13T19:26:00.000+08:00

I want to lose some weight.

Wait, scratch that.

I NEED to lose some weight.

Even when people say you're skinny, don't believe in that white lie. You know yourself better than anyone else does. I know that I need to lose a few kgs. And, this is NOT the early symptoms of being anorexic, because I have never been underweight.

Except thrice.

I do check my BMI quite often. And, I never feel normal =/

Yesterday we went to Mak Cik Syaza's wedding, it was NAAAAICE. It was held in her dad's house (i think) and yeah, the theme was pink. Since we were from Cik 9's side, we were colourful. I wore my new yellow scarf and Tee wore her new purple scarf - all bought from Kakak, she sold them. Anyway, did you know that Tijani can make his brows like Ziana Zain? (hahahahaha contoh yang paling common, wtv) and he's just 3 for God's sake! Comel kan? And this may be a little bit rude but Izzah looks like Shrek's daughter, Felisha. SERIOUSLY, because she has this BIG eyes and she smiles whenever a person comes to her. She really really IS adorable.

Before the wedding, mYang cKin and wo came to our house, they were going to sleep here and yeah I had to make tea. mYang complemented my tea (ehem ehem) but then this morning when I made another jar of tea for them, I 'accidentally' put a little too much sugar. Hehe. Then later in the evening Om came to take Wo's shoes and I made the tea again, he complemented on my tea too ^^ (ehem ehem, HAHAHAHA).

Anyways, anyone can make good teas so why should I talk big about it? Huh, Amirah?

I changed all of my passwords! YEAH!

♥ amzyami

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2010-06-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

"Siapa nak pergi wedding anak kawan abah?"
"Bila? Dekat mana?"
"Subang, anak millionaire."
"WAAAAA NAK IKUT,"

and now, kitorang pergi Giant je. Lagi syok. Hahaha

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2010-06-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

Nobody likes it when their emotions are all mixed-up.
And yeah, you know how terrible this may lead you, as what I said on my 9th post. ( Ingat nak letak hyperlink tapi tak boleh click link from the blog so sebab saya ni sangat kuno :B, I dont know how to. )

UNSTABLE HORMONES CAUSES INFERTILITY.

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2010-06-11T23:42:00.001+08:00

Woooot - my tenth post!

I feel so proud of myself :') hahaha. okay.

This new blogger design is quite alright, I suppose. But since I'm not THAT artistic, I design ugly things. So, yeah. Sorry, I won't use that. I love to steal other people's design.

In the car just now I spoke to Abah about scholarships (hehe) and guess what he said?

ONLY THOSE WHO ARE PURSUING ON MAJOR COURSES CAN GET SCHOLARSHIP.

..and those who are pursuing on things like Mass Comm, Psychology, Economy or Accountancy don't. That word really crushed my dreams. Hahahaha. BUT I AINT GIVING UP. I will study in New Zealand one day. I've been determined to go there since ever!

Atiqah got mad at me because my BB fell on the floor - in the house, and it was only like an inch above the ground. Then she got up and her phone fell from like 5 inches.

Gahaha, bagitau abah :P :P

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2010-06-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

A chronic unstable hormone causes INFERTILITY.
So, whenever your emotions are unstable, don't you ever be proud of it.

I'm worried of my unstable-ness.

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2010-06-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

When someone mentions about ZIT, the first thing that usually comes to our mind is WOMEN.

Technically.

However, do us girls ever wonder that boys do take care of their face too? I laughed my buttocks off when I went to my friend's house years ago. Or was it last year? Nevermind. Anyway, I went to the bathroom and I saw lotsa boys' facial cream. I LAUGHED SO HARD (!) because maybe, I have never seen men wearing those. But, considering that women wear the creams so why not men wear them too? They have to take a good care of their face too.

BUT (!) Somehow for a girl who never lives in a house with at least one boy (father is not included) I really don't get the way men wash their face. But its okay, I realize that they have to do it too.

WHO EVER WANTS HER/HIS FACE TO BE FILLED WITH ZITS?

(Okay agak melampau.)

But stilllllllllllllll, if girls get so sensitive about their skin why shouldn't boys?

If girls want to cover their zit with bandage why shouldn't boys?

Okay frankly, I post this entry because I'm all tensed up because of this zit right above my left eye. It is HUGE. I wanted to cover it with bandage yesterday but then again, let it be. Hahaha even though people can notice it from miles away, this zit will be gone eventually.

Like right now, it doesn't look like a zit anymore.

It looks more like a scar.

I named it Kejutan Di Pagi Hari, because I screamed when I saw it.

IT HAPPENED IN JUST ONE NIGHT OKAY.

amzyami :)

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2010-06-08T20:22:00.000+08:00

This is a very strong determination of mine;

Once I start working, and own a house, or a rental house,
I WILL go to the bookstore every Saturday.
Let it be Boarders, Kinokuniya, MPH or Popular.

Because, I realize that I can't live without books ;)

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2010-06-07T23:33:00.001+08:00

My apologies are all for you.
I still blame you though,
since you don't have a Facebook, I stalk your brother.
I just can't help it.
Psycho much? :P